I miss him today.

Bad.


DH's aunt passed away last night. His family is a wreck, everyone's upset, and I just want to talk to him for 5 minutes. I would give anything. I want to break the news to him, I want to tell him it'll be okay, and I want to protect him from half a world away. So many people in his family are having the worst day of their lives today, and my baby doesn't even know. I don't want him to hear from a stranger in the red cross. I don't know when I'll be able to tell him. We talked for about 90 seconds on Tuesday, but no calls or e-mail since then. I pulled all of his clothes from their hangers last night, threw them on the bed, and slept on them. I'm sure this classifies me in the 'certified nutcase category'... but I didn't care, and besides, it didn't help anyway.

I know we all have days like this, but I would have gladly skipped my turn.

I don't want to be strong today.

I don't want to smile and nod, and console my mother-in-law, and pick out a spray for the casket, and decide what lunchmeat to have at the church after the funeral, while I tell everyone how fine i am, and how well he's doing, and 'oh, I'm just fine by myself' and all the other bs we're sometimes forced to dish out.



I just want my husband to hold me.

:hugehug I'm not your husband, but maybe a hug will help.

If you feel the need to be by yourself and cry, do so! Just stay home, curl up, and let it out. We all have to at some point. I think you are more than justified to do so today!

and no you're not crazy for what you did last night. I can't begin to tell you how many times I've wished I had his clothes here to sleep with. You're not crazy, you're not insane.

I miss him today.

Bad.


DH's aunt passed away last night. His family is a wreck, everyone's upset, and I just want to talk to him for 5 minutes. I would give anything. I want to break the news to him, I want to tell him it'll be okay, and I want to protect him from half a world away. So many people in his family are having the worst day of their lives today, and my baby doesn't even know. I don't want him to hear from a stranger in the red cross. I don't know when I'll be able to tell him. We talked for about 90 seconds on Tuesday, but no calls or e-mail since then. I pulled all of his clothes from their hangers last night, threw them on the bed, and slept on them. I'm sure this classifies me in the 'certified nutcase category'... but I didn't care, and besides, it didn't help anyway.

I know we all have days like this, but I would have gladly skipped my turn.

I don't want to be strong today.

I don't want to smile and nod, and console my mother-in-law, and pick out a spray for the casket, and decide what lunchmeat to have at the church after the funeral, while I tell everyone how fine i am, and how well he's doing, and 'oh, I'm just fine by myself' and all the other bs we're sometimes forced to dish out.



I just want my husband to hold me.

Awww... that part about you sleeping on his clothes is the sweetest thing i have heard in a long time. I hope he calls you soon and I hope you get to tell him. :tears What a hard time for you and his family. :pray :hugs

no i dont think your crazy either. about telling him i agree with you. it needs to come from someone he loves.i sleep with my dh pillow and my mom tells me to wash it but i wont cuz it smells like him i know thats wierd but its my way of coping:screwy

:hugs

thanks everybody. I feel very numb, you know? I'm going for a long workout, in an attempt to drain some of this stress and anger.

I am sooooo thankful I found this site.

PS- Didn't hear from DH today... its after midnight for him already... hopefully tomorrow....

Trust me girlie, if i had some of his clothes here with me, I'd be throwing them on top of the bed and sleeping on them every night until he returned to me. What branch is your man in? I see that we both have the same ticker days going...when his he due back? A workout does wonders. I just went and pushed myself so hard. I was a girl on a mission and honestly I feel a lot better. Go get a good workout in. I bought new sweat pants from Victoria's secret and a relaxing candle today scented lilac and even those little things helped. Hope things get better! Hope he calls soon! :hugehug

Trust me girlie, if i had some of his clothes here with me, I'd be throwing them on top of the bed and sleeping on them every night until he returned to me. What branch is your man in? I see that we both have the same ticker days going...when his he due back? A workout does wonders. I just went and pushed myself so hard. I was a girl on a mission and honestly I feel a lot better. Go get a good workout in. I bought new sweat pants from Victoria's secret and a relaxing candle today scented lilac and even those little things helped. Hope things get better! Hope he calls soon! :hugehug

He's in the Army. We aren't sure when he's coming back. His orders are very vague. I try not to think about it too much... one day at a time, you know? What about you? What's your guy do?

My DB is navy and he's there until june...getting his R&R in either dec/january so I'm pushing to get to that point. Hang in there and if you ever need anything PM me!

:hugs Condolences to the family. I hope you get to talk to DH soon. :(

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I'm sorry to read about all that's been going on. I hope that you are able to talk with DH soon.

This too shall pass.... just believe