Brandi
11-06-2007, 10:22 PM
but it still SUCKS.
Jason leaves June 1st. Still 7 months away. We have plenty of time to prepare for the 9-12 months that he'll be gone (tentatively anyhow, but could be extended depending on ship's schedule :sigh ).
But it's almost like I've got myself in this absolute FUNK, like he's almost already gone or something. We've been bickering a little bit, which hasn't happened much aside from during our PCS move (when stress levels were very high) and I keep thinking to myself "I wish you'd just go!" and I know that's AWFUL but I'm just anticipating how crappy it's going to be when he really is gone. I haven't had to do the deployment thing in a long time and I haven't had to deal with very much separation since we've had kids. So, here I am, 7 months away from his departure date, and I'm already stressed out about it. He leaves June 1st, a day before my birthday, and will supposedly be home within the first quarter of 2009, HOPEFULLY. So, he's going to miss my birthday, Shelby's birthday, Hunter's birthday, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Valentines, probably Easter, Jaxon's whole first year of Kindergarten (with the exception of maybe the last month or two if he can make it home), Shelby's first year of preschool, and everything in between.
What sucks is that I'm here in SD, while the majority of the people attached to his command are in New Orleans with the ship. Most people were authorized to move families there, but not him b/c he's phase 3 and they don't think it would be worth it to move us there. Funny how they will move families to Great Lakes while students are in bootcamp and school, yet they don't think it would be worth it to move us. That makes sense. :taptap But it will boil down to me not really having a family support system here b/c there are not many people from that command that will be here.
I'll get over it, I'll deal with it, I'll flip the happy switch and put on a smile even when I am crumbling inside. I'm just feeling really bummed knowing I won't even have family around to support me. So, I guess that basically means I'm going to be on here bothering you all way too much.
His command has given Jason word that they are losing their Ombudsman and may want me to step up and do it, so I'm hoping that will be something that will give me a bit more communication and support from the command, and also something to make me feel more connected. Not sure when or if that will happen yet though, and I don't want to get my hopes up.
Someone tell me a joke or something. I need to get outta this funky funk. :blech
Jason leaves June 1st. Still 7 months away. We have plenty of time to prepare for the 9-12 months that he'll be gone (tentatively anyhow, but could be extended depending on ship's schedule :sigh ).
But it's almost like I've got myself in this absolute FUNK, like he's almost already gone or something. We've been bickering a little bit, which hasn't happened much aside from during our PCS move (when stress levels were very high) and I keep thinking to myself "I wish you'd just go!" and I know that's AWFUL but I'm just anticipating how crappy it's going to be when he really is gone. I haven't had to do the deployment thing in a long time and I haven't had to deal with very much separation since we've had kids. So, here I am, 7 months away from his departure date, and I'm already stressed out about it. He leaves June 1st, a day before my birthday, and will supposedly be home within the first quarter of 2009, HOPEFULLY. So, he's going to miss my birthday, Shelby's birthday, Hunter's birthday, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Valentines, probably Easter, Jaxon's whole first year of Kindergarten (with the exception of maybe the last month or two if he can make it home), Shelby's first year of preschool, and everything in between.
What sucks is that I'm here in SD, while the majority of the people attached to his command are in New Orleans with the ship. Most people were authorized to move families there, but not him b/c he's phase 3 and they don't think it would be worth it to move us there. Funny how they will move families to Great Lakes while students are in bootcamp and school, yet they don't think it would be worth it to move us. That makes sense. :taptap But it will boil down to me not really having a family support system here b/c there are not many people from that command that will be here.
I'll get over it, I'll deal with it, I'll flip the happy switch and put on a smile even when I am crumbling inside. I'm just feeling really bummed knowing I won't even have family around to support me. So, I guess that basically means I'm going to be on here bothering you all way too much.
His command has given Jason word that they are losing their Ombudsman and may want me to step up and do it, so I'm hoping that will be something that will give me a bit more communication and support from the command, and also something to make me feel more connected. Not sure when or if that will happen yet though, and I don't want to get my hopes up.
Someone tell me a joke or something. I need to get outta this funky funk. :blech