LittleMsSunshine
11-23-2007, 12:03 AM
exDB and I broke up about a month ago now.... he's been busy working 100+ hours a week getting ready go head into the shipyards.... and we haven't talked a whole lot.
He flew down south to attend his grandfather's funeral... and has spent some time with his family.
Last night he texted me... we texted back and forth a few times. I basically told him that he needs to make up his mind because I can't sit around and wait for him forever.
He actually called me (which surprised me) and told me about some hard stuff going on with his family... and he feels like his family is falling apart... and that he's the only one who can intervene and get his mother the help she needs for depression... but he's scared to approach her.... he pretty much opened up to the point where he almost started crying (he's NEVER made himself that vulnerable to me)......
And he also asked me if I'd pick him up from the airport so we could spend time together talking tomorrow night. So I told him I would (I'd originally offered to anyway)....... so I'm going to meet him tomorrow night around 8:30 when his flight gets in.
I think his trip home was a major wakeup call for him. It helped him remember what's important in life... apparently he had a long conversation with his Aunt about things... and it help him put things back into perspective. He apologized to me and told me how bad he misses me... and that I'm everything he wants in a woman, but just feel so overwhelmed lately. He said his aunt asked him why he pushed away the one person who loves him most at the time when he needed someone the most.
This morning he sent me a text saying that he thinks I'm amazing and beautiful and I'm still the only woman he wants to give himself to.... and that he wants to hold me all night.
I'm just so confused. He broke my heart. Twice..... once because he thought he was leaving (but ended up not).... the second time because he was too overwhelmed to function and had his priorities fucked up.
I don't know if he wants to get back together..... but I pretty much feel like telling him... now or never. Either he can suck it up and deal and make it work.... or let me move on. Either way I still think I'm going to spend some time in Arizona.
If he wants to be with me, he's going to have to prove himself this time. :sigh
I'm just so confused. Thanks for listening to me ramble.
He flew down south to attend his grandfather's funeral... and has spent some time with his family.
Last night he texted me... we texted back and forth a few times. I basically told him that he needs to make up his mind because I can't sit around and wait for him forever.
He actually called me (which surprised me) and told me about some hard stuff going on with his family... and he feels like his family is falling apart... and that he's the only one who can intervene and get his mother the help she needs for depression... but he's scared to approach her.... he pretty much opened up to the point where he almost started crying (he's NEVER made himself that vulnerable to me)......
And he also asked me if I'd pick him up from the airport so we could spend time together talking tomorrow night. So I told him I would (I'd originally offered to anyway)....... so I'm going to meet him tomorrow night around 8:30 when his flight gets in.
I think his trip home was a major wakeup call for him. It helped him remember what's important in life... apparently he had a long conversation with his Aunt about things... and it help him put things back into perspective. He apologized to me and told me how bad he misses me... and that I'm everything he wants in a woman, but just feel so overwhelmed lately. He said his aunt asked him why he pushed away the one person who loves him most at the time when he needed someone the most.
This morning he sent me a text saying that he thinks I'm amazing and beautiful and I'm still the only woman he wants to give himself to.... and that he wants to hold me all night.
I'm just so confused. He broke my heart. Twice..... once because he thought he was leaving (but ended up not).... the second time because he was too overwhelmed to function and had his priorities fucked up.
I don't know if he wants to get back together..... but I pretty much feel like telling him... now or never. Either he can suck it up and deal and make it work.... or let me move on. Either way I still think I'm going to spend some time in Arizona.
If he wants to be with me, he's going to have to prove himself this time. :sigh
I'm just so confused. Thanks for listening to me ramble.