I am just having a really off week this week:sigh, i think its because db isreally getting into like doing stuff over there, and even though i do get to talk to him everyday (which I am so thankful for) I am scared and anxious 24/7.

:(:scared He told me this morning that they went out and this little kid got really hurt and he ended up saving the kids life...i am proud of him for that...but scared too...I am so worried that nothing with us is going to ever be the same again when he gets back...we are always laughing, smiling, and joking with eachother, we have NEVER had a fight (a couple of stupid arguments but thats it)...I emailed him with my concerns...because he told me before this depolyment that he wants me to be as open and honest as possible...but I still feel bad for emailing:pout...I just don't know how to do this...which scares me becuase lately I have usually been so positive:worry...thanks for reading...I just feel like shit:gloomy

I just love him so much

Awww hun of course you have your doubts. Remember what you said to me, just stay positive and try to block the bad stuff out as much as possible. I am always wondering if he is going to come back and it will be different. According to my DB's family he went to Iraq his last deployment and he came back and worked through everything pretty well and was the same jovial guy. I even fell in love with him post deployment! If he has a good sense about him and a good head on his shoulders he will know he always has you to turn to and that will be so good for him.
He knows that you having concerns is normal. He would probably be more worried if he thought you were just oblivious to the fact that this is a stressful situation for both of you. I hope your week gets better! Just know that he loves you and wants to be with you! :hugehug

i think having the open communication is the best thing, if you're both on the same page.

sometimes our fears and worries get the best of us, but you have to have faith.

I know it's easier said than done, but keep your chin up - you can do this. I still laugh and joke with DF, I tell him that my goal of every conversation is to make him smile or laugh. I tell him funny stories about things that have happened between us "remember when...", or little inside jokes that make us smile. I send him funny pictures in emails, just to brighten his day. They're silly things, but if he knows that i am still the same, that i can still laugh and joke with him, than it's easier for him.

Your DB will probably change, but you will too, remember that. You are both going through a tough situation and you're going to learn from it and hopefully better yourselves and your relationship. This is my DF's fourth time over there, each time isn't any less dangerous than the other - but deep down he's still that same boy i fell in love with. He's grown and has seen things that have changed him, but thats okay.

You get to talk to your DB daily (which i'm completely jealous of, haha), which is absolutely wonderful - hold on to that. Make a book of all your emails, it's fun to look back on. You just have to keep yourself occupied and go through the motions of each day.

I'm here for ya girl!! :hugehug

I hope your week is better than you think!!

thanks for the really nice responses...they truly helped...ehhhhhh im just a mess at work again...i wasn't like this since he left!

i think having the open communication is the best thing

:agree I think it's good that you are letting him know your concerns. I let DB know before he left that he should expect some "scary e-mails" and that they didn't mean I was losing faith, but that I was having a rough day. :hang Things will get a little smoother. :hugs You've been so sweet when you respond to all my posts, PM me for anything. I hope your week picks up. :xfingers

I tend to feel that maybe your man doesnt need to be telling you everything. I have always felt this way when guys are deployed becuase of this exact situation. I always see that it makes woman more anxious and worry more. I have always thought about the danger like this.
I cant control it.
I can think about it sometimes and I can worry a little becuase I dont know what I would to with out my husband BUT
I never dwell on it becuase again I CANT CONTROL IT
so basicly if I did dwell on it I am wasting good thoughts that I could be having.
My sister was dating agrunt for 2 years and in that time he did 2 tours in iraq. She was so upset and falling apart all of the time her grades dropped in college and she fell into serious debt. She became totally resentful of him and the times he was home wernt happy times.
Everyone feels everything differently but my whole point in this is try and chanel that negativ eenergy through something else. Think about happy things and what not. And dont feel guilty about emailing him. He asked for that and you have a right to do that. Woman would explode if they didnt tell their men their feelings. Its not like you bitch at him 24/7 (-8