I'm to the point in this deployment where I'm so sick of crying, I've cried so much during this deployment and I'm just tired of it. A part of me feels that if I don't cry I must don't care about my husband which I do, I love my husband very much but it's almost 4 months into him being gone and I'm thinking should I be crying because he is gone or start getting excited because he is almost home. I don't know, I'm just rambling on.

Was there a point in your deployment where you stopped the crying completely?

As hard as it is, try to remember the deployment separates you 2. don't let it divide you and :tears. I think they are normal within reason. I feel like 1/2 of me is missing when he's not here :sadeyes. He's my BFF and everything and :dunno. Try not to cry :bouquet - count down the days till he gets back and don't get discouraged. PM if you wanna chat.

surprisingly after the first few weeks i stopped crying...now its only about once a week where i feel really crappy and ill cry or a few minutes.

im not sure why ive been doing so well...with my personality i figured id be miserable the whole entire 15 months hes gone...

but then again its still early and im sure things will change for me!

hang in there you almost made it! be looking forward to him coming home!:cp