I just want to lay down in my bed, curl up in the fetal position, and start sobbing. The only reason I havent is because I dont want to freak out my roomie. I miss DB so much more than usual today! I guess not hearing from him for a while has taken its toll. He sent me an email saying "...Good luck with the recruiter, cant send you a birthday or christmas present right now because my card is frozen..." and thats the most I've heard in over a week. At least I know he is ok now, but I still have a Hole where my heart should be right now.

:gloomy:worry:worry:worry

:bigsadhug

:bigsadhug

Thanks

:tears

:bigsadhugI am so sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you atleast get to hear from him soon, I know hearing his voice oe reading his emails mean way more then the gifts. although gifts are nice too when possible. It will be OK

:bigsadhugI am so sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you atleast get to hear from him soon, I know hearing his voice oe reading his emails mean way more then the gifts. although gifts are nice too when possible. It will be OK

I told him all I want on my b-day is a phone call from him if its possible. That is ALL I want right now. Just to hear his voice.

:consoling I hope you hear from him soon, We all have days like that:hugs

I'm sorry hun, I'm sure he'll call, it will get better! :bigsadhug

when is your birthday?

when is your birthday?

Dec. 19th... exactly one week from today.

:hugs

The important part is you KNOW he is OK and the whole in your heart is normal.

Cry girl, who cares if your room mate freaks out. She will understand or learn to understand. You might be surprised, she may be very supportive and be a leaning post when you need it.

If all else fails you have us.

The important part is you KNOW he is OK and the whole in your heart is normal.

Cry girl, who cares if your room mate freaks out. She will understand or learn to understand. You might be surprised, she may be very supportive and be a leaning post when you need it.

If all else fails you have us.

Roomie is a guy. A very... um... "emotionally challenged" guy. Lol.

The important part is you KNOW he is OK and the whole in your heart is normal.

Cry girl, who cares if your room mate freaks out. She will understand or learn to understand. You might be surprised, she may be very supportive and be a leaning post when you need it.

If all else fails you have us.

I agree, sometimes its good to cry! Sometimes people don't understand, but they aren't going through a deployment.

I agree, sometimes its good to cry! Sometimes people don't understand, but they aren't going through a deployment.

:yes

I know. Maybe I'll just sit down in my car and freak out my neighbors for a while. :innocent

it is ok to do that too, I have ... who cares what people think...

it is ok to do that too, I have ... who cares what people think...

I know, right? They probably think I am crazy, but I dont care, "I do wha I wan" (A-la-cartman)