ok, so DB and I have about 5 months left on this deployment to the sandbox. (our first together) It was incredibly hard for me when he first left, I cried myself to sleep every night for several weeks, and then we got in the swing of things and I was booking right along. Never once did i cry on the phone with him or online or anything, I kept it to myself and was incredibly strong I thought, I was secretly giving myself a tiny little pat on the back lol:lol

I just got to see him on leave, and now he's back over there. I was an absolute mess having to say goodbye to him...I expected that. When he was boarding the plane to germany, ireland wherever, he called me and I started to cry....first time crying on the phone with him. Ok, no big deal, he was sweet, and I thought I got it out of my system.

I can't stop crying this week! He's been back a few days now and I've cried twice on the phone, and then tonight we were talking online, and he was even talking flirty and sexy to me lol and I started to cry about that!

I just don't understand this development....of all times I should be crying it was months ago, I keep telling myself we are on the downhill stretch, there's no reason for this. But he is continually turning me into a big ball of goo as DB puts it lol;)

I guess there's no point to this really, I'm just frustrated:( I want him home, I want this over with, and I'm tired of crying!!:no

oh and to top it all off he caught part of his christmas present on the webcam, i was stupid and had it sitting on the table:tears What did i do when he asked what it was??? cry:dunno

oh hunnie. i was the same way.

i felt a million times worse after r&r then i had the first time. for me it was hard because you get use to them being gone, almost like you forget you miss them (if that makes sense)... then they come home and you remember how much you enjoy them around and then they're gone!! it's like starting over, except this time you already know that hurt... so it hurts worse.

you'll pull through again though. i promise :hugs

:hugs I know how you feel but think of it this way everyday you miss him he is one more close to being home (L)

OHHHHHHH im so sorry!!

I think you need to give yourself some time to just relax and get used to him being gone again. I think thats the problem and why you are so upset...its just like when he left the first time when you cied yourself to sleep every night, give yourself some time to get over the fact that hes gone again

I know you can do it! you only have 5 more months left!!!!!! We are here for you...You have been doing great so far!

:hugs It's normal to be encountering a rough patch! Especially since you're in the process of readjusting after R&R. You will 'normalize' soon enough. Maybe you keep bursting into tears b/c you're not truly letting it out. Take the time to have a good cry, get it out of your system. You'll feel better :hugehug :hang

i feel the same way....db is supposed to get leave in august,but then they told him january...he hasnt even been gone 2 months yet!!! he gets his forsure dates in the next few days and im HOPING that its later than january



but i feel like ive been extremely strong and doing so well this first month and a half...but i feel like after r and r i will be a wreck because i KNOW that i wont see him for a year or until hes home. i think im strong this time because i know i have r and r to look forward to, but after he goes back he will have 11 or so months til hes home, and im so afraid of those 11 months.

i hope you feel better! you got through it the first half, you can do it again! just think 5 months and he will be HOMEEE!!

I'm sorry. I have yet to have R&R yet, but I had this idea in my head that it would be easier for him to leave the second time, since it'd be so much shorter. Half the time.. Maybe I was wrong. :confuzzle

Just remember though, every day away is just another day closer to when you get to see him again! You can do it! :D

Oops, I meant.. easier for me. Silly.

I'm sorry. I have yet to have R&R yet, but I had this idea in my head that it would be easier for him to leave the second time, since it'd be so much shorter. Half the time.. Maybe I was wrong. :confuzzle

Just remember though, every day away is just another day closer to when you get to see him again! You can do it! :D


Yeah I thought it would be a lot easier for him to leave the second time as well....and honestly for the most part it has. I'm not so down in the dumps all the time, it just really hits me hard when I talk to him. That's the time that it is harder than the first time.

Thanks everyone for the nice words:hugs