I feel as if I am losing my mind. I hate this so much. I can't breathe at times. All I do is cry and cry. No one to talk to cause my friends don't understand. I hate to be around the kids crying cause its not healthy for them either. But how can I stop crying. The man I love more than anything (aside from my kids) is leaving on monday. My birthday of all days. My first birthday together with him and he is leaving on that day. My heart is breaking in so many ways. So many things I want to tell him but I dont know how to! So many things I wish I could say. How do I tell him I am going to be miserable without him. How do I tell him that it does hurt and that I am not ok. I don't want him to leave his job he is so proud of what he does. How am I suppose to be ok with 271 days unless extended. What does that mean unless extended as if 271 days isn't long enough. How do I say goodbye to him when he is in Mississippi and I am in Florida. I don't even get to kiss him goodbye cause they are not letting him come home. How is that fair. I can't even hold him. He cant even say goodbye to the kids. I hate this so much. All I want to do is crawl in a hole until this deployment is over. Everytime I try to talk to someone all they know how to ask is how do u do it. How do u ask someone something like that. I feel as if my world crumbling down right before me. I dont know what to do!

Yami

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Hang tough.....everyday that goes by is one day closer to homecoming...
keep yourself busy....
He knows you love him, he knows you are sad, unfortunetely he has no control of where he goes...he goes where they tell him too....be supportive no matter how much it hurts...write....write....write....he will love the letters....
while he is gone for 271 days....do something for yourself...the days will pass quicker...
the will pass it you do or not...

i live in st pete florida...i have 2 girls....my SO in Boot camp....work and kids keep me busy...when he left i couldnt sleep and cried in the car...but as work got busy and the kids have activities....i am so busy i fall into bed at night and another day has passed...

PM if you wanna talk....this site is great for passing time..