Ok, so today is apparently going to be one of those days where I sit around and cry all day. I hope he calls because I think thats about the only thing that is going to snap me out of this.

:bigsadhug

I hope he calls you! Hang in there.:hugehug

it must be in the water today or something! this day has just majorly sucked...thank the gods for SOS!!!

it must be in the water today or something! this day has just majorly sucked...thank the gods for SOS!!!

Yeah, I get on here everytime I can't get the tears to stop flowing. It helps me but then it just starts all over today. I can't seem to kick it. It's nice to know that I'm not miserable alone :)

Im begggggggggggggging the phone gods for a phone call as well!!! hang in there!

Yup. I think today just sucks.

yea im in your boat too. really down and its 2 days before x-mas which puts icing on the damn cake......:sigh

I'm an idiot. I'm feeling all down and what do I do, check my voicemail and listen to everyone he has left since July. Why did I do that?

i did that this morning! you want to think it will make it feel better but NOPE! just rubbs it in a little more:sigh

i have at least twenty of his texts saved...I started trying to save the sweet ones in like the summer...but I had to keep editing them down so that I could keep getting other texts still...I always go through them...and I always listen to his voicemails before I go to bed...I have about 4 of them...three are him telling me that he loves and misses me (one he is completely wasted saying it for the first time...hahahha) and the other is just him being goofy...

mmmm makes me miss him more tho... :-(

i have at least twenty of his texts saved...I started trying to save the sweet ones in like the summer...but I had to keep editing them down so that I could keep getting other texts still...I always go through them...and I always listen to his voicemails before I go to bed...I have about 4 of them...three are him telling me that he loves and misses me (one he is completely wasted saying it for the first time...hahahha) and the other is just him being goofy...

mmmm makes me miss him more tho... :-(
I had a ton of saved text but last week i dropped my phone in water and lost them all!!! i was sooooo upset about it!

i have at least twenty of his texts saved...I started trying to save the sweet ones in like the summer...but I had to keep editing them down so that I could keep getting other texts still...I always go through them...and I always listen to his voicemails before I go to bed...I have about 4 of them...three are him telling me that he loves and misses me (one he is completely wasted saying it for the first time...hahahha) and the other is just him being goofy...

mmmm makes me miss him more tho... :-(

I've saved tons of "good" texts to. It's funny, my favorite voicemail I have saved is him smashed. He was going through his time before deployment where he turned withdrawn and rather unloving. In the voicemail he goes on and on with the most loving things I have ever heard from him. It let me know that even though he was dealing with the thought of going to war and distancing himself that he still truly loved me. Great, now I'm crying even harder.

awe! :bigsadhug we're all here for you! :grphug

im so sorry! keep your chin up sweetie! the drunk voicemail from my love is like that too...he was at his friends bachelor party for the weekend...and the first night he called and I answered and we were talking (hes completely hammered) and just going on and on about how much he cares for me and how much I mean to him and how Im one of his best friends and I mean the world to him...and then he hesitated (he was going to say I love you but chickened out) so he texted it to me and said that he thought it would be better if he waited till he was sober...well I fell asleep and he proceeded to get way drunker with his friends and left me a voicemail saying that he "fucking loves me"... only it sucked cuz the next day he asked if he had said anything embarressing and I had to say no because I knew he didnt remember...but i let him listen to the msg when he got back and all he said was that he was really drunk... :-( good thing he eventually came out and said it adn now tells me all the time so it made up for it...I still keep it on my phone tho because I can laugh about it now...silly boys!

The hard part is when I have days like this is when I do finally get to talk to him keeping it all bottled up. I act like everything is great. He is the love of my life and I'm supposed to share my every thought and emotion with him. Now is the time in my life when I need him the worst and I have to just shove it in a bottle. I know that it's for his good and that I have to but he's the one I want to cry to. War sucks!!!

The hard part is when I have days like this is when I do finally get to talk to him keeping it all bottled up. I act like everything is great. He is the love of my life and I'm supposed to share my every thought and emotion with him. Now is the time in my life when I need him the worst and I have to just shove it in a bottle. I know that it's for his good and that I have to but he's the one I want to cry to. War sucks!!!

:agree :hugehug

I got my phone call :yay

I got to talk to him for 30 minutes and now today feels wonderful all over again. I'm like a fricken light switch anymore. He actually called back again and it went straight to my voicemail which ticked me off but then I listened to the message. It was amazing. Our phone call had got cut off before we were done talking the first time and he told me he didn't get to tell me how much he loved and missed me before we got disconnected. I hated missing the call but now I have another message to depress myself with :D

Im so jelous!! BUT YAYAYYYYYYY!!!! Thats great!!!!!!!! Im glad its going better now!

glad u got to talk to him!!!

I got my phone call :yay

I got to talk to him for 30 minutes and now today feels wonderful all over again. I'm like a fricken light switch anymore. He actually called back again and it went straight to my voicemail which ticked me off but then I listened to the message. It was amazing. Our phone call had got cut off before we were done talking the first time and he told me he didn't get to tell me how much he loved and missed me before we got disconnected. I hated missing the call but now I have another message to depress myself with :D

:yay glad you got your call!!!!!! funny how 30 minutes can totally overcome the 12 hours or so before it, huh? :yes

:yay glad you got your call!!!!!! funny how 30 minutes can totally overcome the 12 hours or so before it, huh? :yes

hurray!! hahahaha tooooootally! I got to talk to him online for like an hour (no phone call but still...) and it was the bestest!!!!

i think just knowing they are stilll there helps me calm down....even if I cant tell him everything I want to

You're so luck! I have gotten two very short emails...but just happy to hear that he's safe.

hurray!! hahahaha tooooootally! I got to talk to him online for like an hour (no phone call but still...) and it was the bestest!!!!

i think just knowing they are stilll there helps me calm down....even if I cant tell him everything I want to

:hugs I'm glad you got to talk to him. I call my husband's phone just to listen to his voice. I lost my phone that had all the cute voice mails and texts on it. :(

hurray!! hahahaha tooooootally! I got to talk to him online for like an hour (no phone call but still...) and it was the bestest!!!!

i think just knowing they are stilll there helps me calm down....even if I cant tell him everything I want to

Congrats to you 2. :yay :yay

He was actually a grump but a really loving one. His day royally sucked and he "just wanted to talk to me". He kept telling me how much he loved me while bitching at the same time. It was kindof cute. Normally I don't go for I Love You in a mad pissed off voice but this time I'll take it :D

I'm an idiot. I'm feeling all down and what do I do, check my voicemail and listen to everyone he has left since July. Why did I do that?

I do this too, and it just makes me more upset...i think its a natural response to missing him...I just like to hear his voice...but ya know what we need the days where we are sad and crying...i think its healthy to feel whatever emotion is coming at us that day...but its important to feel it and then move on...whenever i feel like crying i make myself and then move on...

I blame the holidays too...it makes everyone more emotional and makes everyone miss people more...I hope you have a better day tomorrow and I'm here for you whenever...just pm me!!! I really hope you snap outta it haha!

I got my phone call :yay

I got to talk to him for 30 minutes and now today feels wonderful all over again. I'm like a fricken light switch anymore. He actually called back again and it went straight to my voicemail which ticked me off but then I listened to the message. It was amazing. Our phone call had got cut off before we were done talking the first time and he told me he didn't get to tell me how much he loved and missed me before we got disconnected. I hated missing the call but now I have another message to depress myself with :D

oooppps i didn't see this...my apoligies...and the light switch thing is totally me....up and down, up and down...i can't stand it!!!! Im glad you gotta call tho!

I am totally having one of those days, honey! DB wanted to call me for Christmas, but turns out that they are LEAVING around then, so nope, no such luck! I haven't stopped crying... And every damn song, video, whatever reminds me of him.

I think its a combo of the holidays and just one of those lousy ones! :no

:sigh Here's hoping he week improves, and those phone calls come!

:hugehug

:edit Ok I'm a ditz I totally didn't see the one where he called... :yay

I'm happy for you hun! I totally know the light switch feeling, its so irritating! :duh