this is to my boyfriend, regarding our situation that we've been going through.

i know that i have been feeling very insecure and overly needy with all my calls and what not. the fact is that i got scared, and i am still scared. but i think i'm pushing you farther away more than trying to become closer to you which is what i truly want. if you need time, i'll give you as much as you need. i'm here in your life for good, i know that and you know that. but i think we should keep things slow for right now. i want to build a relationship with you, but i have had unreasonable expectations of how i felt you should have been with me and i'm sorry for that. the fact is i have been selfish, its not just about me. i'm sorry i have forgoten that you have a lot going on in your life right now. i miss you, i miss talking you, i wish i could be there for you. i know you have so much stress on your sholders and right now you have other priorites, i get that i just wish i had gotten it sooner, i shouldnt have added more stress into your life. i will try to call you soon and see if you feel like talking. i really want to be here for you through this. even if all you want is for us to be friends for right now, i would like to have a relationship with you but...maybe you need some time to readjust and adjust to your new situation. i really dont know what you're thinking about, i just know my feelings have been all over the place and i have been thinking the worst and it has scared the shit out of me. i want you in my life, i need you to be a part of my life, and i want/need to be a part of your life. so take some time and think. if none of this has anything to do with what you have been thinking about then you get to laugh at me for being crazy. either way i hope to hear from you soon. i love you very much.

Tu ere mi mundo,
Your Lizard


tell me what you think if there are anythings i should add or leave out or not even send it at all let me know please.:please

i think it sounds alright...

how long has it been? i'm just thinking maybe don't give it to him tooooo soon?

yeah i plan on sitting on it for a little while he's on his way back to alaska right now and i'm going to wait a while to see what happens when he get back and has time to get his attorney stuff and whatnot squared away.

i think that's a good idea, to give him a little time. :hugs

thanks

i think it sounds really good

:hugs Good Job. I'm proud of you. :yes

sounds good to me..did you send it to him and has he responded.

sounds good to me..did you send it to him and has he responded.

I haven't sent it yet i want to give him time to get over being sick and to settle back in on the base.
But i will update as i have them.

sometimes time is the best thing for two people in a relationship to do.