Is is possible for you to revert to crying after being fine for over a month during deployment?? I had my last breakdown on Jan 15th, the one month mark of the day he left after R&R. I don't remember having such highs and lows. I have been fine since then, even on V-day....but last night I was writing him a letter and I broke down again when I told him how I can't get excited about him coming home. Not that I don't want him to, I WANT HIM HOME WITH EVERYTHIGN IN ME!...it's just that after 9 months away I can't believe he is really going to come home....we still have about 3 months to go.

I have been w/ my DB for 9 months (we got together after hanging out the week before training, became official while he was in training) so this whole relationship has been pretty much long distance. I had known him prior to getting together, so we didn't jump into things, and I have no doubts about how we will be when he gets home, so it just doesn't make sense to me.

I keep hearing different dates, and he finally told me officially on paper a round about time for them to be out of the sandbox, but I can't get excited about it. This is what I have waited for! I should be bouncing off the walls excited, but can't help but sit around and want to blubber. Its like my coping skills have gotten shifted into reverse. And I KNOW this date isn't a rumour...command handed it down.

3 months after 9 seems like so little, but I seem to think that it will never pass...and am having such hard time believing it is true. Is this normal guys?

I went from back to myself to crazy want to be left alone to cry again....

Well, the part I can relate to is being fine- then being off the deep end in tears... Idk about the rest though.

But I definitely know how that goes. I was doing just fine until about a week ago on the drive home & I just got a thought of DB in my mind & completely broke down. It was horrible. No that we've passed our 1/2 way mark- I'm sort of numb to the whole 'gonna be home' deal. It sucks that im not more excited...

But I'm in the same boat! So PM me if you ever need to talk!

Yea it is possible. Its crazy. I remember one day I was doing good and then I sat down to buckle my shoe and for no reason I started to cry. I think its good to get it out ever once in a while. Hang in there!! Your doing good!

It is sometimes scary when they come back b/c u want everything to be prefect but dont know if they are expecting something of you! Esp if you have had a long distance relationship for most of it... sometimes they are hesitant of what you are expecting too, and worried that they have changed a lot. But dont worry in three months you should be excited n happy he is back, even if you are still anxious. He prob cant wait to get back and most of all to see you...
Sry... I dont have too much advice... lol

Very possible...I just had an episode a couple days ago. Just cry and get it out. You'll definately feel better for it :yes

I'm just on a emotional roller coaster right now. I woke up this morning in the best mood and I was happy because we talked last night and had been chatting in email a lot. Then he called today for 5 minutes to tell me bye for now because he won't be able to contact me for 2 weeks. I started crying at work. :tears up and down up and down. Uggg I want him back home too!

you're definetly not alone. i will be fine for the longest time and then out of nowhere i will just start crying!

awww im sorry hunny...i think anything that has to do with deployment is normal and not crazy...I am fine for a month and then I will have a week like this week and im a mess...who knows what causes this...maybe you are just getting super nervous about him coming home...I would be too! there are so many things to think about...but i just want you to focus on one and the most important...he is coming home!!!! YAY!!!! that is awesome...you have made it 9 months hun!! 9 months!!!!!! 3 is nothing...you can do this and we are all here to help!

I think we all have our days. I can be fine for weeks and then just need to have a day to let it all out. Hang in there. :)

Heck yeah its normal. I think I'm doing good and then its like I'm drunk driving and hit a wall.

Heck yeah its normal. I think I'm doing good and then its like I'm drunk driving and hit a wall.

Omgumballs! I love that analogy! Lol, it is exactly what I feel like. Everything was trucking along fine, then BAM! It hit so dang hard, when I f'ng found out when exactly he is coming home, it just makes no sense at all!