hey all...

just wanted to check in and see how you all were doing and feeling?

everything is going tons better on my end...he calls less and I feel less smothered

Im actually back to missing him like hell, and thats where I want to be...

so....how are you doing??

i am feeling not so great today... not sure why since he will be home soon but I still feel like :poop

I am all good one minute the next :tears just flowing non stop.

:dunno what is wrong with me... actually yes i do... its called anxiety... I had nightmares of him coming home to tell me he is leaving :dunno and lots of more bad thoughts...

I think i just need to sleep it off and hopefully make to saturday when he is suppose to call again. I haven't heard anything from him since his last email. :sigh:worry:pout:lonely

I am just so SICK AND TIRED OF THIS! I WANT IT TO BE OVER NOW!!!!!!! :crybaby :tantrum

Ok sorry, how is everyone else?

Jill, I am glad to hear things are better for you!

awww im sorry, and yes it is anxiety 100%....so at least you know you aren't going crazy...

just think soon enough he will be home! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you can make it, things are going way better over here...I had a talk with him and it was all good...

I'm feeling amillion different emotions every minute it changes and I just want him hom eon R n R so I can be WITH Him for real. Things are slowly getting better but there is healing that needs to happen and i think can only happen when we finally get to hold eachother ... ya know. Now he's not sure when his leave dates will be they keep bouncing around BUT sometime soon he will be home. I can't WAIT!!!!!

I'm glad everything is better for you two.

I am doing great! Well other than dh having duty, but that is only because his devision is full of jerks. But, that is ok. I am glad to be home, to have my love home, and to finally be healing and able to do things by myself again!!!!

I'm back and forth.

Part of me is looking at things like "we have made it through 4 1/2 months, the next 2 1/2 will be easy!"

The other 1/2 is so sick of being away from him and it seems like he will never get here. I think the extension, even though it is only 30 days, really knocked me back a few steps.

I started a new job, hopefully it will stick, and I am hoping it helps to make the time fly because I am going looney right now. I watched my donut go from like 30% to go to like 45% and that sucked.

This week was rough for me. I'm ready for my emotions to stop jumping all over the board!! I'm feeling better right now and my mom is coming to visit tommorow for the weekend so I'm excited for a girls weekend with my mom and sister. Glad everything is looking up for you guys!! retrvinfool, I bet you can't wait to get ahold of him!! Thats really exciting!

awww im sorry, and yes it is anxiety 100%....so at least you know you aren't going crazy...

just think soon enough he will be home! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you can make it, things are going way better over here...I had a talk with him and it was all good...

Thanks :blush

Yeah I keep repeating over and over " he will be home soon" in between sobs. Today has just been a day... my poor tech's they never knew what hit them when i walked in to work today :scared

I am having a drink then going to sleep and hopefully waking up to find that it completly iced over and i can spend the day in bed.:sadeyes

Im super frustrated :hairpull thanks for asking :lol
DH emails me yesterday and says "hey baby try and find the key volunteer # online so you can se when we are coming home"
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so I am looking and having the worst time with it.
He was stationed with a unit and then attached to another one while in Iraq then while in Iraq went on a Det to another base in Iraq and has been there ever since. So I look at the unit I thought he would come home with and they came home in January so thats out the window. Then I look at another one but that doesnt seem right either because they are out of Miramar and he isnt. He is only with like 5 guys and none of them can give him an answer. I chose not to be apart of other military wives or groups. Its not my thing. All I want is to know the unit so I can listen to the hottline! Buuuuuut of course after he writes that email he gets off and I havent heard from him since. So I have to wait...and I HATE waiting...Other then that I am wonderful. tanned for one minute to long today though :teehee Oh Well! Glad Things are better with you! :hugehug :lovesign

I'm doing ok. There is a lot going on right now, but it's ok. My parents are coming for a visit this weekend and I am really psyched for that!
I hope everyone is doing well!!!

I'm up & down & up & down....contact is so little now a days which SUCKS. Before he came home from R&R we talked all the time phone&IM but now that he's at a different base and a LOT busier we never get to talk and that's really taking a toll on me. It really sucks and I feel so dissconnected from him.

I don't know...I'm just in a down spot right now and it feels like *Homecoming* will never get here no matter how many times I tell myself it will.

I especially get discouraged when I see people posting that they're at their halfway marks already yet they're so's have only been gone on average 3 months. It's SO discouraging...that I'm at 5 1/2 months and I'm not even half way...sometimes I think I can't do this.

But, then I remind myself how much I love Seth, but it's like this sucks so bad. ugh I'm just sad tonight and all i'm doing is complaining :(

I'm totally freaking! We're in the "teens" and the days keep getting slower and slower and they keep adding one day at a time on to the homecoming date. I'm starting to wonder if he's ever really gonna get here :arg

Other than that I am great! I moved back into our house last week and am VERY SLOWLY getting things accomplished. My belly is getting huge and heavy and slowing me down and making me sleepy!

Hope everyone else is hangin in there!

I'm up & down & up & down....contact is so little now a days which SUCKS. Before he came home from R&R we talked all the time phone&IM but now that he's at a different base and a LOT busier we never get to talk and that's really taking a toll on me. It really sucks and I feel so dissconnected from him.

I don't know...I'm just in a down spot right now and it feels like *Homecoming* will never get here no matter how many times I tell myself it will.

I especially get discouraged when I see people posting that they're at their halfway marks already yet they're so's have only been gone on average 3 months. It's SO discouraging...that I'm at 5 1/2 months and I'm not even half way...sometimes I think I can't do this.

But, then I remind myself how much I love Seth, but it's like this sucks so bad. ugh I'm just sad tonight and all i'm doing is complaining :(


I'm sorry! I know we Marine wives suck!! I can't imagine only being like halfway right now:no! I sowwy for u!!! Hang in there sweetie!!

I'm totally freaking! We're in the "teens" and the days keep getting slower and slower and they keep adding one day at a time on to the homecoming date. I'm starting to wonder if he's ever really gonna get here :arg

Other than that I am great! I moved back into our house last week and am VERY SLOWLY getting things accomplished. My belly is getting huge and heavy and slowing me down and making me sleepy!

Hope everyone else is hangin in there!

:teehee those dang loosers! Tell them to knock that day adding off!!!!

I'm real anxious atm too. I know the window we're looking at and it's semi-close.. yet so far away. It seems like the days are dragging like none other.. Ugh.

But I'm okay. I'm just keepin' my chin up and doin' what I need to do! :D

I mean.. I kicked over 9 months already in the rear, think I could swing another month or two. lol

:vent:teehee those dang loosers! Tell them to knock that day adding off!!!!

I know GRRR!! Every week they add another day! Maybe we'll get lucky and they will still make it home on the first proposed day... NOT BLOODY LIKELY!

well...mrs Ordinance...im sorry things are so damn confusing for ya! and you find some of your answers soon...those numbers and titles and all of that mean nothing to me haha...

Mrs.Highfill...keep that baby healthy and get some rest...glad your all moved in!! and I love how your belly looks in your avatar...so adorable...

Iluvmysoldier-I feel for you sweetie, and I think its very discouraging too, I see some people already halfway at 3 months, and im like wow, Im not even a quarter of the way done yet...It sucks, it blows, it FUCKING SUCKS ASS...but thats the way it goes...we just have to stay strong for them...and do happy things for us...thats the most important...sometimes i feel like I can't do this either...I feel hopeless...but then I think of him and how awesome our life is going to be once this nightmare is over, and i feel a little bit better and more hopeful...Im here for you whenever you need to talk...9 times out od 10 we are probably feeling the same way

and im glad all the other ladies are doing ok...thats what I like to hear...:D

I'm real anxious atm too. I know the window we're looking at and it's semi-close.. yet so far away. It seems like the days are dragging like none other.. Ugh.

But I'm okay. I'm just keepin' my chin up and doin' what I need to do! :D

I mean.. I kicked over 9 months already in the rear, think I could swing another month or two. lol


great attitude hun!!!!

Blondie! I don't know how you do it, but you're awesome! Your comments always cheer me up :yes

Mrs.Highfill...keep that baby healthy and get some rest...glad your all moved in!! and I love how your belly looks in your avatar...so adorable...



Thank you! I actually keep getting told that I don't look 8 1/2 months pregnant! My new doc and all of the girls here keep telling me my belly is too small! Maybe that means she wont weight 10 pds :pray:pray:pray

Hang in there girly! I'm gonna be soooo much prouder of you for making it than I am myself! Time has flown by and it still feels like he left last month! I hope at the end of it all it feels the same for you army SOs!!

I'm stressed. I havent found my groove yet but I will.

Blondie! I don't know how you do it, but you're awesome! Your comments always cheer me up :yes

That's cuz she's GREAT!! I always like reading your comments to people toooo!!!!!

Blondie! I don't know how you do it, but you're awesome! Your comments always cheer me up :yes

im glad, i just really know what you are talking about...it is very disheartening...when you think you are doing so well and so far along (because we really are...i mean we are doing GOOD) and then you see someone around the same time as us, and they are having a homecoming and its like shit damn im not far!!!

i don't mean this in a bad way for navy, marine, and air force so's at all...i know we all have different shit to deal with

I'm stressed. I havent found my groove yet but I will.

ekkk...well be sure you are getting enough sleep, and eat right...those are good things for stress, and go get a manicure or better yet a massage...hope you feel better

That's cuz she's GREAT!! I always like reading your comments to people toooo!!!!!

awww you both are great...and always make me feel better

I'm stressed. I havent found my groove yet but I will.

:hang you'll find your groove soon!

great attitude hun!!!!

Yep, yep. I mean it inhales that he's gone, but it can't be avoided. Might as well keep myself positive and get stuff done! Hehehe.

im glad, i just really know what you are talking about...it is very disheartening...when you think you are doing so well and so far along (because we really are...i mean we are doing GOOD) and then you see someone around the same time as us, and they are having a homecoming and its like shit damn im not far!!!

i don't mean this in a bad way for navy, marine, and air force so's at all...i know we all have different shit to deal with


Both of you feel free to kick me in the butt!!! I won't hold it against you! I promise!


Oh and Jill stop mentioning massages!!! I want a pre-natal massage soooo bad but I'm such a cheap skate!

Blondie! I don't know how you do it, but you're awesome! Your comments always cheer me up :yes

Gonna have to agree completely. Hehe. You're a good cheer'er'upper, Blondie. Hahahahahaha. That's gonna be in the dictionary someday.

Thank you! I actually keep getting told that I don't look 8 1/2 months pregnant! My new doc and all of the girls here keep telling me my belly is too small! Maybe that means she wont weight 10 pds :pray:pray:pray

Hang in there girly! I'm gonna be soooo much prouder of you for making it than I am myself! Time has flown by and it still feels like he left last month! I hope at the end of it all it feels the same for you army SOs!!

awww thanks...I hope so too, like i seriously pray for it every single night haha...your belly is small!!!!! it is teeny!! and ps im proud of you for making it...6 months is nothing to sneeze at

Gonna have to agree completely. Hehe. You're a good cheer'er'upper, Blondie. Hahahahahaha. That's gonna be in the dictionary someday.

awww thank you!!!!! wow, im feeling the love hahaha

Im doing good. we just got done with our 4 day pass and we had an awesome time.
I dropped him off last night to leave out of country.
Somehow I remained strong and smiled and say goodbye with no tears. Kids all did really well also.
Im adjusting to being all alone agian and Im sure in a few days when he gets into country, Ill be a basketcase but for now I feel refeshed, strong and good.

Both of you feel free to kick me in the butt!!! I won't hold it against you! I promise!


Oh and Jill stop mentioning massages!!! I want a pre-natal massage soooo bad but I'm such a cheap skate!

you should go to a pre-natal swimming class...i used to lifeguard them, and there were all these cute pregnant women coming in and treading water, it looked so relaxing

Im doing good. we just got done with our 4 day pass and we had an awesome time.
I dropped him off last night to leave out of country.
Somehow I remained strong and smiled and say goodbye with no tears. Kids all did really well also.
Im adjusting to being all alone agian and Im sure in a few days when he gets into country, Ill be a basketcase but for now I feel refeshed, strong and good.

good!!!!! lets keep it that way!!!!

Im doing good. we just got done with our 4 day pass and we had an awesome time.
I dropped him off last night to leave out of country.
Somehow I remained strong and smiled and say goodbye with no tears. Kids all did really well also.
Im adjusting to being all alone agian and Im sure in a few days when he gets into country, Ill be a basketcase but for now I feel refeshed, strong and good.


Aww you are so strong!!! I hope you have a wonderful weekend!! Keep your chin up! I know you will!

Hey Everybody-
I'm doing well since DB called yesterday and we had one of those conversations that was full of laughter and jokes. He is coming to the end of his deployment and I can hear the relief in his voice when we talk about life back at home. It occurred to me that I've learned a few lessons through this deployment experience that I couldn't have learned any other way, and I've made some amazing friends because of the situation. Who knew that good things could come out of something I desperately DIDN'T want to happen! Anyway, thanks for asking about all of us. I love this site and all of you! I must say we military girlfriends, fiances and wives are one incredible group of women! :hehe

you should go to a pre-natal swimming class...i used to lifeguard them, and there were all these cute pregnant women coming in and treading water, it looked so relaxing

Haha I used to lifeguard them too!! We don't have any around here! This place sucks :grumpy Now you made me think of something else I miss and wanna do. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrr lol

Hey Everybody-
I'm doing well since DB called yesterday and we had one of those conversations that was full of laughter and jokes. He is coming to the end of his deployment and I can hear the relief in his voice when we talk about life back at home. It occurred to me that I've learned a few lessons through this deployment experience that I couldn't have learned any other way, and I've made some amazing friends because of the situation. Who knew that good things could come out of something I desperately DIDN'T want to happen! Anyway, thanks for asking about all of us. I love this site and all of you! I must say we military girlfriends, fiances and wives are one incredible group of women! :hehe

im glad you had a good convo...i LOVE LOVE LOVE those good convo's....yea its crazy when we can pick out the good things in such a horrible situation...and yes we are an amazing group!!!

Haha I used to lifeguard them too!! We don't have any around here! This place sucks :grumpy Now you made me think of something else I miss and wanna do. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrr lol

whoooops!!! are there any ymca's?? or do those only exist in pa? im sorry!!!!!

Hey Everybody-
I'm doing well since DB called yesterday and we had one of those conversations that was full of laughter and jokes. He is coming to the end of his deployment and I can hear the relief in his voice when we talk about life back at home. It occurred to me that I've learned a few lessons through this deployment experience that I couldn't have learned any other way, and I've made some amazing friends because of the situation. Who knew that good things could come out of something I desperately DIDN'T want to happen! Anyway, thanks for asking about all of us. I love this site and all of you! I must say we military girlfriends, fiances and wives are one incredible group of women! :hehe


That is freakin awesome!!! I feel the same way you do!! I dreaded the day he left sooooo much but now that its almost over I look back and see how much I've gained!! I love love love it! Go you!

I was just thinking "WOW, seems like just yesterday I put up that ticker and it only read 1 day....now it's 4 mos and 2 weeks......:wow

But most of the time I am frustrated that he is gone....and as I posted the other day, we had that scare and it really shook me up. He's so nonchalant about the whole situation, sometimes I could just smack him in the head! :vent

I feel lonely most of the time. BUT I just started a new job so that is going well and we only have until April for R&R... :cp

I'm a little lost on some of the "happenings" around here, seems like I'm never "in the loop" but I try to keep up with everyone.

I'm up & down & up & down....contact is so little now a days which SUCKS. Before he came home from R&R we talked all the time phone&IM but now that he's at a different base and a LOT busier we never get to talk and that's really taking a toll on me. It really sucks and I feel so dissconnected from him.

I don't know...I'm just in a down spot right now and it feels like *Homecoming* will never get here no matter how many times I tell myself it will.

I especially get discouraged when I see people posting that they're at their halfway marks already yet they're so's have only been gone on average 3 months. It's SO discouraging...that I'm at 5 1/2 months and I'm not even half way...sometimes I think I can't do this.

But, then I remind myself how much I love Seth, but it's like this sucks so bad. ugh I'm just sad tonight and all i'm doing is complaining :(

I hear ya there. I am always thinking "Well, at least I've got two weeks behind me even though most of these people have a bunch of months. It's discouraging at times and I have my moments but it just seems so far away. I want to be at the halfway mark.. it seems like such a ways away though.

I was just thinking "WOW, seems like just yesterday I put up that ticker and it only read 1 day....now it's 4 mos and 2 weeks......:wow

But most of the time I am frustrated that he is gone....and as I posted the other day, we had that scare and it really shook me up. He's so nonchalant about the whole situation, sometimes I could just smack him in the head! :vent

I feel lonely most of the time. BUT I just started a new job so that is going well and we only have until April for R&R... :cp

I'm a little lost on some of the "happenings" around here, seems like I'm never "in the loop" but I try to keep up with everyone.

yea i feel lonely here too, esp on the weekends when i see a bunch of couples everywhere that I want to punch...good luck with the job!

whoooops!!! are there any ymca's?? or do those only exist in pa? im sorry!!!!!

Did you work for the Y???? That's who I worked for! I lifeguarded and taught swimming lessons for like EVER!
We have them in NC but NONE in Jacksonville. When I moved here I was sure that I would just go straight to the Y and get a job... Boy was I disappointed!

Did you work for the Y???? That's who I worked for! I lifeguarded and taught swimming lessons for like EVER!
We have them in NC but NONE in Jacksonville. When I moved here I was sure that I would just go straight to the Y and get a job... Boy was I disappointed!

yea i lifeguarded everywhere! but one of the places I worked when I was in college was the Y right here in West Chester PA...all the pregnant ladies would come in and go swim and I would just be like AWWWWWWWW I want a baby!!!

I was just thinking "WOW, seems like just yesterday I put up that ticker and it only read 1 day....now it's 4 mos and 2 weeks......:wow

But most of the time I am frustrated that he is gone....and as I posted the other day, we had that scare and it really shook me up. He's so nonchalant about the whole situation, sometimes I could just smack him in the head! :vent

I feel lonely most of the time. BUT I just started a new job so that is going well and we only have until April for R&R... :cp

I'm a little lost on some of the "happenings" around here, seems like I'm never "in the loop" but I try to keep up with everyone.



Wow it seems to me like it was just yesterday when you put that ticker up! I remember reading your post when he left!

Wow it seems to me like it was just yesterday when you put that ticker up! I remember reading your post when he left!


I know! Somedays it seems as if I'm swimming in mud and I swear I can HEAR every minute on the clock tick by and then.....a week has gone by!!!!
Am I going crazy?? :P

Im doing good. we just got done with our 4 day pass and we had an awesome time.
I dropped him off last night to leave out of country.
Somehow I remained strong and smiled and say goodbye with no tears. Kids all did really well also.
Im adjusting to being all alone agian and Im sure in a few days when he gets into country, Ill be a basketcase but for now I feel refeshed, strong and good.

when i had to say goodbye i was the same way...didnt cry and held it together...then i was a basketcase as soon as he left my sight hahahahah ahhhhh the memories...doesnt seem like it was so long ago... glad to hear from every one! Im settling in better to my new job and trying to not worry so much about his well-being...hes still been making an effort to talk to me despite him having a hard time...and hes got a day off coming soon so maybe we can sort somethings out...but ive realized that a deployment is no place to be analyzing the state of your relationship...

and blondie u always have great feedback!

I'm not doing bad. I've been very irritable the past few days because I'm just getting frustrated with the lack of communication with DH. I try to be all kinds of positive when him and I talk but lately I'm really angry a lot.. and I just haven't figured out why. It's probably just me adjusting to everything now that I'm over the being upset thing. I know he misses me and all that.. but I'll get one or two sentence emails and the only question I get is "Did you mail my box with the bedding in it? And the pillow?" I wish I could understand why I've been so angry... I guess it'll work itself out sometime.

when i had to say goodbye i was the same way...didnt cry and held it together...then i was a basketcase as soon as he left my sight hahahahah ahhhhh the memories...doesnt seem like it was so long ago... glad to hear from every one! Im settling in better to my new job and trying to not worry so much about his well-being...hes still been making an effort to talk to me despite him having a hard time...and hes got a day off coming soon so maybe we can sort somethings out...but ive realized that a deployment is no place to be analyzing the state of your relationship...

and blondie u always have great feedback!
thank you..and i think you do too!!!!

I'm doing o.k. I guess. I haven't heard from hubby in a week so I am pretty worried. I am going to assume that comms are down or he got sent out on a mission right as he got back to his FOB. I dunno what it is but I hope he writes soon so I can remain as calm as I have been trying to be.

:)

I'm not doing bad. I've been very irritable the past few days because I'm just getting frustrated with the lack of communication with DH. I try to be all kinds of positive when him and I talk but lately I'm really angry a lot.. and I just haven't figured out why. It's probably just me adjusting to everything now that I'm over the being upset thing. I know he misses me and all that.. but I'll get one or two sentence emails and the only question I get is "Did you mail my box with the bedding in it? And the pillow?" I wish I could understand why I've been so angry... I guess it'll work itself out sometime.

I think you are definitly still adjusting to the whole thing...it takes awhile..sometimes i don't think i've adjusted yet!!...it will work itself out over time

I'm doing o.k. I guess. I haven't heard from hubby in a week so I am pretty worried. I am going to assume that comms are down or he got sent out on a mission right as he got back to his FOB. I dunno what it is but I hope he writes soon so I can remain as calm as I have been trying to be.

:)

yuck, yea i wouldn't worry about it, but it is annoying and very anxiety producing...im sorry, I hope you hear from him soon...im sure he is just as excited to talk to you as you are to talk to him

Hey Everybody-
I'm doing well since DB called yesterday and we had one of those conversations that was full of laughter and jokes. He is coming to the end of his deployment and I can hear the relief in his voice when we talk about life back at home. It occurred to me that I've learned a few lessons through this deployment experience that I couldn't have learned any other way, and I've made some amazing friends because of the situation. Who knew that good things could come out of something I desperately DIDN'T want to happen! Anyway, thanks for asking about all of us. I love this site and all of you! I must say we military girlfriends, fiances and wives are one incredible group of women! :hehe

so true so true...gotta love conversation like that too!!!

Hey JIll...you ROCK girl..........just wanted to remind you

I'm doing o.k. I guess. I haven't heard from hubby in a week so I am pretty worried. I am going to assume that comms are down or he got sent out on a mission right as he got back to his FOB. I dunno what it is but I hope he writes soon so I can remain as calm as I have been trying to be.

:)


It sucks when they don't call!! I hope you hear from him soon and try stay calm!

yea i feel lonely here too, esp on the weekends when i see a bunch of couples everywhere that I want to punch...good luck with the job!

im lonely too :sigh ive got a really weird roommate that is like...i dunno shes just weird and never talks...and seriously runs in her room if i come home...and im like the NICEST person ever:no:no:no oh well

but two of my friends are coming to visit me tomo! so that will boost my spirits i think! They are actually two of DBs good friends and guys he used to live with...and my teammates (rowing) so i think it will be good to talk to them and hang out..make me feel like DBs here kinda...i told them i wanna go to the aquarium !! or maybe the circus cuz its in town!

Hey JIll...you ROCK girl..........just wanted to remind you

aww thanks, all of you ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i kinda just like to know how everyone is doing

im lonely too :sigh ive got a really weird roommate that is like...i dunno shes just weird and never talks...and seriously runs in her room if i come home...and im like the NICEST person ever:no:no:no oh well

but two of my friends are coming to visit me tomo! so that will boost my spirits i think! They are actually two of DBs good friends and guys he used to live with...and my teammates (rowing) so i think it will be good to talk to them and hang out..make me feel like DBs here kinda...i told them i wanna go to the aquarium !! or maybe the circus cuz its in town!

awww thats fun! i haven't been to the aquarium in so long! I have db's friends phone numbers, and when I get drunk I always want to drunk dial them....because I think it will make me feel closer to db...but I haven't done that yet...I thiink they would think im nuts...

roomates are hard...luckily mine is great just extremely messy have fun this weekend

I am doing okay. Up and downs you all know the usual roller coaster. All and all though things are looking good, just ready for it to be over. On a side note however, DB mother is driving me batty asking how her son is doing all the time, I just want to say, e-mail him and ask yourself. But alas that is a whole other rant. Hope you all are doing excellent!

I am doing okay. Up and downs you all know the usual roller coaster. All and all though things are looking good, just ready for it to be over. On a side note however, DB mother is driving me batty asking how her son is doing all the time, I just want to say, e-mail him and ask yourself. But alas that is a whole other rant. Hope you all are doing excellent!

I know how the mother in law thing is!! DH's mom calls me like every other day to ask how he is. I feel bad for her though because he calls me so much and doesn't call her because he says it will take up his "call me" time. Boys...

realllly wanting to talk to him!

I'm just trying to get used to this deployment... its his 3rd but my first as the girlfriend. We've been best friends for 10+ years but obviously, when you are this attached in a relationship, you think and feel differently than you do with just a friend over there. Ugh....I shower his myspace with comments and emails and pictures. And then I send him stuff in the mail every week. I hope he doesn't get sick of it! :) (he won't)

To those of you not having good days, I hope they get better!

For those of you having great days, I'm glad! Keep smiling and make the other girls smile too!

-torie

Today was terrible!!!!
He comes home in like 6 weeks but i just miss him so much 15 months is soooooo long im nervouse and excited all at the same time!!! Plus DB and i have never been a couple i person only while hes been in Iraq have we been together i have known him my whole life but what if its not what we want i just cant imagine my life without him. What about the girl he was talking to before he left, we were not together or talking about it when he first left. And ontop of all that thats going through my head, he is mia on a mission and i have not heard form him since saturday. Most of the time i hear from him at least once a day!!!! Its soooo hard!!!! I just cry and cry and then freak out and cry some more!!!! I wish i could fast forward our lives a year and he would be done with the army and i will be dont with school!!! Sorry that was so long now im gonna go cry

i'm doing good, it has been a CRAZY week at work, but i took my designs to the kick off meeting and everyone flipped over them (personally I thought they were kinda poopy but hey I get paid to create what they want right) DB is back in an area where I get to hear from him more and he has been using his webcam allot which is nice.

Seriously though the last month and a half is killing me. Although it has been good for jujitsu, I totally jacked this guy up that is 2x my size, it felt AMAZING!!!

I am so glad to hear most of you are doing good and have worked out all those bumps in the relationship roller coaster called deployment.

So I have gone from one dress for homecoming to 5 lol. I am not buying a new one, spending my money on under things and a trip for us to Monterey. I'm hoping to get pictures of myself in all of them this weekend. I will post them so I can get your feedback ;)

ok guys, stay strong

i feel liek im in hell tonight ive got 6 freaking days till i see him and im bummin why i have no clue urgh do i hate time!

I personally feel like I'm emotionally on my knees. Mentally, I'm pretty strong (defined to me as not worrying 24/7 about things I can't control and actually trying to be productive on the things I can). Physically, I'm good too. I've lost some weight (like 7 lbs.) and have more energy than usual from day-to-day. Emotionally, though, I've been stripped of everything I had. My support system is actually the opposite...they just need soooo much and, for now, it's been too much. I cried like a baby last night, which felt good, but the cloud is still here.

Today is one of those blah days. Another 13.5 months to go. I haven't heard from him in any form in two weeks. I need a day at the spa and some ice cream, but i'm on a diet. Boo! Mentally i'm awesome. I am constantly planning and keeping busy. Physically i'm dieting and trying to exercise more. Emotionally i'm a tiny bit depressed, but trying to forget that I am.

Ok here just ready for it to be over!

Some days I don't know how I'm doing. I'm excited for Dh to be coming home but then it seems like homecoming will never get here. I'm just sick of everything I want him home.