I've been MIA the last couple days.I've just been a wreck.We're over.For real this time.I'm afraid the reasons are going to sound stupid to you guys,but I just can't do this anymore.Db(well ex Db now) had a 4 day pass and he went to Cali with some of his guys.Not a problem at all.But I didn't get a single phone call or text the entire time.The last time that happened was when he cheated on me.

So after having a complete emotional breakdown all weekend,he finally calls yesterday.And he was just really distant.He said he had a good time.When I brought up that we didn't talk the entire time,he just got really silent.For him,that's always a bad sign.Then he started talking about how he did want to be with me,but the distance is too much.He wants someone who can physically be there.

I'm ashamed to admit it,but I cried and I begged him that we can do this.That we're stronger than any distance.He told me that maybe I am,but he's not.He said he didn't cheat on me,but it was on his mind all weekend.He just needs someone who's physically there.

That got me pissed.I gave him another chance after he cheated on me and ripped my heart out the first time.I NEVER give second chances.And then all I do is try and make him happy and it's not good enough.I don't know.It still hasn't really set in yet.But I'm not going to try and fix this.I did the first time and I can't go through that again.I just hope I'm strong enough to stick to it.

Wow...I'm so sorry! That really does suck. If you ever need to talk, just let me know.

im sorry

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Be strong girl. You can get over this!

I don't blame you at all. I would have done the same thing. That said, I'm so sorry! Breakup are tough.

awww im sosrry. stay strong!

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:hugs I am so sorry sweetie. It seems like something is in the air with these men. Find someone who won't cheat on you the first time. You deserve someone who is strong enough to make it through any distance.

:hugs I am so sorry sweetie. It seems like something is in the air with these men. Find someone who won't cheat on you the first time. You deserve someone who is strong enough to make it through any distance.

Thank you.Thanks to all of you.I put so much into it,especially this time around that it's just surreal.But after having a good cry and destroying a lot of letters and deleting his texts last night,I feel a bit better.I'm glad I have all of you though.Otherwise I think I'd be going crazy.

sorry to hear about that :hugs stay strong, you'll get through it.

You are way better off without him. Now you can find a REAL man who won't be phased by distance.

Thank you.Thanks to all of you.I put so much into it,especially this time around that it's just surreal.But after having a good cry and destroying a lot of letters and deleting his texts last night,I feel a bit better.I'm glad I have all of you though.Otherwise I think I'd be going crazy.

I also just want to say that you are stronger then you think. Don't doubt that. It's too easy to be defeated by something like this. Take what you can from the situation and become an even better person!

You're right.I know you are.I know I'm strong.It's just so completely unexpected.I love him so damn much and this time around I thought things were right.It's just going to take awhile to heal.But I know I want to be with someone I could completely trust and wasn't afraid of a few obstacles,and he wasn't that.So in a way I'm kind of glad he realized it now than further down the line.

You're right.I know you are.I know I'm strong.It's just so completely unexpected.I love him so damn much and this time around I thought things were right.It's just going to take awhile to heal.But I know I want to be with someone I could completely trust and wasn't afraid of a few obstacles,and he wasn't that.So in a way I'm kind of glad he realized it now than further down the line.

it always takes a while to get completely over it, but when you do you will find an amazing man =]

take time for yourself to heal. it's so freaking hard to get over a person whom you've been waiting for, esp. when it's a relationship that you've fought so hard to keep. But maybe it's best that you don't keep it. I know this is so cliché but you do deserve better. I am a strong girl too and I've fought for many relationships that weren't even good for me, just because I am a fighter and I recognize 'giving up' as only weakness. But it's not weakness when your relationship was tearing you apart. Sometimes letting go is the strongest thing you can do. What's that lyric by the Fray.... um..... OH....."sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"

The guy should bring out the best in you, "bless you never stress you"*, and cherish you. If he doesn't do that, then don't be with him. It's a deceptive lie to think that there is no one else for you.
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* line from "Beautiful", G. Love & Special Sauce

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