navyiatorgirl
04-20-2008, 01:03 PM
I can't stand this holiday right now! I lost my mom last year and I'm having a very, very hard time with this holiday.
Mom had cancer 17 years ago. June 2005 she started complaining of a lot of neck and back pain - and during our family trip to Italy, we had to medicate her with vodka gimlets. (Which, admittedly, even though she was sick, she found a bit funny.) She came home, started having chest pains. We thought she was having a heart attack so we took her to the ER. They found a MASSIVE tumor over her left lung - I saw it on the X-ray, you could barely see the diaphragm. So, a month later, they had a 8 hr surgery to remove a 9 lb tumor as big as a cantelope AND her whole lung and diaphragm.
They found another one 6 weeks later and did another surgery which she never recovered from. From that point on they tried radiation, chemo - which never worked, it just made her lose her hair :tears :tears and get sick - and the tumors kept coming. By the time she finally died after fighting it for almost two years (the doctors had given her just a few months to live) she had at least 8 tumors in her body and cancer all through the lymph system.
She was my best buddy. I came home from school to watch her die. I miss her so very, very much and I HATE Mother's day. :tears I don't know how to deal with it because this year I'm going to be far from home and won't get to put flowers on her grave. :depressed
I guess I just need hugs.
Mom had cancer 17 years ago. June 2005 she started complaining of a lot of neck and back pain - and during our family trip to Italy, we had to medicate her with vodka gimlets. (Which, admittedly, even though she was sick, she found a bit funny.) She came home, started having chest pains. We thought she was having a heart attack so we took her to the ER. They found a MASSIVE tumor over her left lung - I saw it on the X-ray, you could barely see the diaphragm. So, a month later, they had a 8 hr surgery to remove a 9 lb tumor as big as a cantelope AND her whole lung and diaphragm.
They found another one 6 weeks later and did another surgery which she never recovered from. From that point on they tried radiation, chemo - which never worked, it just made her lose her hair :tears :tears and get sick - and the tumors kept coming. By the time she finally died after fighting it for almost two years (the doctors had given her just a few months to live) she had at least 8 tumors in her body and cancer all through the lymph system.
She was my best buddy. I came home from school to watch her die. I miss her so very, very much and I HATE Mother's day. :tears I don't know how to deal with it because this year I'm going to be far from home and won't get to put flowers on her grave. :depressed
I guess I just need hugs.