I don't see why I had to lose my baby, but others are perfectly happy aborting..
I get JEALOUS everytime I see a mother with a baby. That should be me.
I can not believe it has been a entire YEAR since I lost my angel and it still pains me so.
I would do anything to get him back :tears :depressed

Right now I need nothing more than someone to hold me close and tell me everything is going to be ok, but I dont have someone to do that for me.
I am SO depressed right now, life is not seeming worth it.
I just want my baby back.
I want the pain to go away. No matter how hard I try, I cannot seem to heal.
:unlove:unlove:unlove I want my baby back :tears

:hugehug:hugehug I am so sorry hun. I know its sooo hard to loose a baby I lost twins a few years ago and never fully got over it. I think that maybe it just was not the right time. Try to keep your chin up and take one day at a time. Your time will come to be a mommy. my best thoughts and :pray go out to you. Always here if you need to PM and talk.

:hugehug:hugehug I am so sorry hun. I know its sooo hard to loose a baby I lost twins a few years ago and never fully got over it. I think that maybe it just was not the right time. Try to keep your chin up and take one day at a time. Your time will come to be a mommy. my best thoughts and :pray go out to you. Always here if you need to PM and talk.

Thankyou..
I am just having a rough couple days. Everytime I get my period, it feels like the wound is getting deeper.
I wish the world knew my story, but I am afraid to tell it :sigh

You should tell it. It might help you to put some closure to that wound. it might be hard at first to try it but I think you should tell your story. We are all here to support you.

It started with me being raped... He forced me to have sex with him SO many times. I stopped fighting back. He came around almost everyday. He even let his cousin watch and join in on the "fun".
After he found me pregnant, he beat me. When I was about 4 months along, he finally succeeded. That bastard killed his own baby.
He then jumped town, for months. He came back after I had gotten with DF, and raped me again.
He only stayed in town for a week that time. So I only got it once.
My "friend" that introduced him to me, just texted me telling me he is back in town.
Pretty much what caused me to even think of it.
:depressed
That is my story.
My god why? How could he do it... The entire time i thought I loved him.

I am sorry hun no one should have to go through that. You need to use the laws that are there to protect you. I would get a restraining order on him and if on that order you list why you want it the DA will usually take over in seeing that he is punished for the crimes he comitted towards you. I am sooo sooo sorry that you had to go through that.

He also needs to be held responsible for the CRIME OF MURDER. I am not sure where you live or what that state considers for unborn children but I know that in more then a few if you were beaten an resuly in death of unborn fetus it is considered murder and he can go to jail for this. Also the fact that he raped you he needs to pay for those things. If you are strong enough I would really consult the DA's office and tell them your story.

I am so sorry you lost your little one. I wish there was more I could say to help but there are no words that will fill that wound. If you can take it to the DA then maybe that right there will allow you some closure as well.

ALWAYS HERE IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK!

I am sorry:hugs I hope that this trip of his in town goes quick and that you dont run into him.

:hugehug I'm sorry, sweetie. I've had a miscarriage, too, and it is very painful, especially when other people throw their babies away -- literally. I try to remember that all things happen for a reason and there must have been a reason my baby didn't survive. Maybe there were other health problems with the baby that would have been horrible for their life. Or maybe God knew I would in later life decide I didn't want children for other reasons. Who knows. I hope and :pray that soon you will again be blessed with a child.

i know you're hurting, but i don't think many women are "perfectly happy" aborting... when i was thinking about it, it tore me up inside terribly. but like you, i miscarried, and now i have a whole different kind of pain.

i'm sorry you went through such a traumatic and tragic experience. you're in my thoughts.

:( i am so sorry that this happened to you. there is no excuse for what happened to you.

like MedicsWifey said...there is a reason for why these things happen. my sister-in-law miscarried at 7.5 months and she had to deliver the baby after induction. it was very traumatic for her. but after she delivered the baby, the doctor observed that her fingers were fused together on one hand which apparently is a sign of a genetic disorder that probably caused the baby to die in her womb. God took this baby from her belly because she never would have led a normal, healthy life. Her life will always be so wonderful because she's in Heaven with the Lord and never has to witness the heartache and craziness of this world. i hope you find some peace in what has happened and i pray that God blesses you with another child someday.