It's been one month today since we lost Skylar.
My heart aches so much everyday and I miss him so much.
I ache for not being able to ever feel him kick me or hold him in my arms after giving birth or watching him grow. :tears
I don't know why this happened but Im so overwelmed with the pain somedays it's hard to imagine trying again just to possibly be right here again...
I love you sweet baby and watch over your angel sibling up there with you. I think of you both everyday. I still have your ultrasound pics on the fridge to remind me of how beautiful you are. I love you so much and Maw Maw will hold you and hug you and kiss you for me till Daddy, Jerron and Mommy meet you again one day. I Love You Skylar. (L)

:hugs I didn't realise it was that long. Time goes quickly. Thinking of you sweetie

I'm sorry Cori. Today must be so difficult for you. :bigsadhug

:hugs So sorry Cori. I still think of my little one that I lost. Let me see if I can find something for you. I have it saved in my email, I think. I will post it in a second.

:hugs

Tomorroww morning," the surgeon began,
>"I'll open up your heart..."
>
>"You'll find Jesus there," the boy
>interrupted.
>
>The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll
>cut your heart open," he continued,
>to see how much damage has been
>done..."
>
>"But when you open up my heart, you'll
>find Jesus in there," said the boy.
>
>The surgeon looked to the parents, who
>sat quietly. "When I see how much
>damage has been done, I'll sew your
>heart and chest back up, and I'll plan
>what to do next."
>
>"But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The Bible says He lives there. The
>hymns all say He lives there. You'll find Him in my heart."
>
>The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell
>you what I'll find in your heart.
>I'll find damaged muscle, low blood
>supply, and weakened vessels.
>And I'll find out if I can make you well."
>
>"You'll find Jesus there too. He lives
>there."
>
>The surgeon left.
>
>The surgeon sat in his office, recording his
>notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta, damaged pulmonary vein,
>widespread muscle degeneration. No hope for transplant, no hope for
>cure. Therapy: painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, "here he paused,
>"death within one year."
>
>He stopped the recorder, but there was
>more to be said. "Why?" he asked aloud.
>"Why did You do this? You've put
>him here; You've put him in this pain; and You've cursed him to an
>early death. Why?"
>
>The Lord answered and said, "The boy,
>My lamb, was not meant for your
>flock for long, for he is a part of My
>flock, and will forever be. >
>Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and will be comforted as you
>cannot imagine. His parents will one day join him here, and they will
>know peace, and My flock will continue to grow." >
>The surgeon's tears were hot, but his
>anger was hotter. "You created that
>boy, and You created that heart. He'll
>be dead in months. Why?"
>
>
>The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb,
>shall return to My flock, for He has
>done his duty: I did not put My lamb
>with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve another lost lamb." >
>The surgeon wept. The surgeon sat
>beside the boy's bed; the boy's
>parents sat across from him. The boy awoke and whispered, "Did you cut
>open my heart?"
>
>"Yes," said the surgeon.
>
>"What did you find?" asked the boy.
>
>"I found Jesus there," said the
>surgeon.
>
>
>Author Unknown -

Oh Tiffany that was beautiful :tears Thank You.
Today has been hard but I took a Phenergan this morning because my medicine had made me sick and slept till almot 5pm...

:hugs Cori. I think of you daily.

Thanks Girls, that means so very much. (L)

:hugs
I am so sorry for your loss.

your post brought tears to my eyes. i'm so sorry Cori. You are so strong though. don't give up.

my 3 year old brother Stephen will watch over Skylar as well until you can all be together. :pray

:hugs we love you girl

:bigsadhug

:hugs I am so sorry for your loss. I am almost at the 6 month point, and it is still hard. If you ever wanna talk, feel free to pm me.

I cant imagine what you are going through right now. I hope u get trough this very difficult day. :consoling

Thank YOu all very much. It has been 2 months (as of Sunday) and it still is very painful. We are trying to move forward and try again but not a day goes by I don't think of my angel. Every Tuesday I remember how far along I would be... I would be 23weeks now. :tears

I'm so sorry you are going through this. :hugs :pray

:hugs I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

:hugs

Cori, you are so strong!! God is taking care of your precious baby and one day you will meet again!! :hugs

:hug Hang in there Cori. We love you.