I know you hear a lot of comments like these and I'm sure some of you even feel like this too.

Its been 8 months since DF left back to Iraq. 8 long months of me trying to be a mother and a father to my kids. All this time I've been strong and trying to stay strong, even pretend that I am when I'm actually feeling like crap. Lately this stress has been more and more heavy on me, I cry more often, I get mad more often, even simple arguements with my family turn into big fights now. I know its me, I dont have patience any more, I can't hide my fustration that this is not over yet. I know there's several months till september for homecoming, buy why are they so hard. Depression meds are not working any more. I feel like crawling into bed and not come out till september, its funny how i give ppl advice, but the one who really needs them its me. I wish this was over, and be the family we were before all this deployment kicked in. I feel like no one understands my fustration and ppl think this is easy. DF re enlisted and he might be going to Iraq again within the coming years, and if there is a second time I wont come home, I'll stay where ever we are, because yes I do get the support, but not the support I need to deal with this.

Thanks for listening.

:hugs for you.

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:hugehug I hope you get to feeling better. You are on the downward side of this deployment that something positive to think about.

Awww. you will get through it. at least you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.;)

:hugs I have no words of advice or wisdom. Heck, I was a complete basket case just yesterday. But I do feel your pain. :bigsadhug

I hope things go better for you hun :hugehug Be strong! :hugs

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i hope you have a better day tomorrow. i'm so sorry.

aww honey..


you will make it through it. And you always have use to fall back on. We are here for you. :hugs

Don't worry, September will get here soon

I'm right there with you!!!! Mine has been gone for a little over 8 months too...it sucks it sucks it sucks and emotions are crazy....I'm easily ticked off at this point too but you've made it this far, so have I. JUST take it one day at a time!!! That's all you can do...every night you lay in your bed before you fall asleep...just think you're ONE day closer to him being right there next to you again. At night one day might seem small but when he's laying next to you again....you'll think "WOAH I made it a whole year through a deployment....I'm one strong woman!!!"

YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks for the support ladies

we're all here for you! i'm sorry this is happening to you... just keep strong! you're doing a great job so far! :hugs

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It's tough, I know, hang in there!:hugs

:hugs I hope things get better for you and you start getting the support you need. You can get through this! Plus you always have us to help you through! :wink

I'm sorry hun...he'll be home soon and it'll be over :yes :hugs

I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling. Have you thought about talking to your doctor about upping your depression meds or possible changing them? You don't always have to be strong. Have you thought about taking a day for yourself? Go get your nails done or a massage or something. I am here if you ever need anything!!

hang in there! you're doing a great job and we're here for you! :hugs

You mentioned anti-depressants, but do you have a counselor? Sometimes that makes the world of difference. Having someone to vent to, that is unbiased and can offer firm support.

Take time out for yourself. Plan a whole day just for yourself. A movie? museum? Pedicure? You need to de-stress as best you can.

Family not being supportive? In plain english let them know what kind of support you need and don't need. You're right, they have no clue what you are going thru and unless you spell it out they won't. Tell them "when I vent, I just need you to listen, when I cry I just need a hug/shoulder and a tissue" ect....

Set tiny goals until he comes home. Get yourself a calendar and mark off your goals.

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You mentioned anti-depressants, but do you have a counselor? Sometimes that makes the world of difference. Having someone to vent to, that is unbiased and can offer firm support.

Take time out for yourself. Plan a whole day just for yourself. A movie? museum? Pedicure? You need to de-stress as best you can.

Family not being supportive? In plain english let them know what kind of support you need and don't need. You're right, they have no clue what you are going thru and unless you spell it out they won't. Tell them "when I vent, I just need you to listen, when I cry I just need a hug/shoulder and a tissue" ect....

Set tiny goals until he comes home. Get yourself a calendar and mark off your goals.

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I agree with the tiny goals, mine was always trash day. It came every week so it was not that long to wait to be able to say I MADE IT to something but long enough that it counted!

This week has been an awful one for me too. :depressed


Hang in there! :hugehug

okay to all those who read and responded to this thread. i just wanted to come by and say that im doing better and that i feel like life has never been this great before to me. yes im still missing one thing. MY ADORABLE SOLDIER. yes i know and i know that when he gets home things are gonna be perfect. i think life is treating me like a princess, but there are times that i can't help feeling a little down but its due to this deployment, i thank god i have my family and great friends that support me one way or the other and even friends who i dont know physically but they are the ones that take me foward to another day....i just want to appreciate all the advice and support i get from each and one of you girls...many hugs and i love you. bye

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