Hey all.:sadwave
I know this probably seems stupid compared to the poor girl on here who lost her BF today. But I just found out this morning that DH is going to be moved o a new place in Iraq. 30 miles from Baghdad. I'm scared shitless because where he is now isnt bad and hes safe and yes im selfish i get to talk to him every morning and he wakes me up. i lay and bed and talk to him on the phone and its like when we wake up together and spend the morning in bed together. I started having a panic attack when he told me. My chest started to close and I couldn't breathe and I cried hysterically. He keep promising me that he's coming home to me and hes going to come home and make a baby with me. But I'm scared that now that he's so close to the biggest problem in Iraq that I wont ever kiss his lips again or sleep in his arms again. I hope he comes home. I pray to God every night to bring him home safely and let now harm come to him. We have 4 months left in this deployment and we have been doing so well. But now I'm starting to worry more and more every hour that passes and think about him not coming home. I dont want to think about that. I want to think good thought that he coming home and we will move to Fort Bragg as planned and have a baby by August of 09. But then I think about what life would be like as a 22 yr old widow to a soldier.
I cant stop thinking like this. Help me girls this is the first time in this deployment in 8 months that I've lost it and started to freak out!!!!
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If you got this far thank you for reading it all.

Help Please!!:confuzzle:confuzzle

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i kinda know how you feel... im kinda in the same situation...

df said there may be some "movement"
where he is now is pretty safe, and i feel comfortable, we dont have very much communication, but like i said he is pretty SAFE and thats what i care about. he said he coldn't talk about it over the phone and it wasn't a for sure yet, but honestly im scared shitless.

we can do this though, we can all get through this together...
just keep praying and keep your head up :hugs

I think it's normal to feel this way. Especially after reading about a loss. But I'm right there with you and I worry every day. Just know you're not alone :hugs I hope you start to feel better soon.

:hug i know how u feel i started to freak out whenever i saw the news and they talked about the City where my DH is .... i turned off the TV and started to Cry BIG TIME

we r all here for u PM me if u wanna talk!

Though you haven't lost him like the other girl has lost her df, this is the biggest thing affecting your life right now so you have more than enough reason to vent, and be upset. And you're not selfish :hugs

I'm sorry this is happening. He will come home though, have faith. 4 months left- only 4 months :D I know how hard this is, it never gets easier so I know exactly how you feel- but really, the odds are with him in this one darling :) You gotta stay strong. You will totally be posting homecoming pics in 4 months time, I know it!

I think it happens to everyone...I get all nervous when DH tells me he will be flying on a helicopter from one place to another to drop piss bottles for test...so i know how you feel..
Remember the time is nearing adn you jsut haev to keep positive regardless of the situation..girl..you made it through 8 months...you got another 4 months to go..you are almost there....just breath in and out and tell yourself that everything is going to be ok..

I haven't had to cope with DB being sent to another area. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. :hugs

no words just :pray and :hugs
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I think it is really best to keep a positive outlook on these situations. The minute you let negativity creep in it can be disasterous to your morale. :hugs

:hugs It's hard to not think about that stuff, but you'll drive yourself nutters if you do. I think that the news here on the board has put a lot of us more on-edge than usual. Combine that with his relocation, and it's going to be hard on you. But you can do this. He's going to be fine and so are you!

It is ok to be scared!!! That is totally normal. I really don't have anything that I could say to help but big hugs coming your way!!

EVerything you are feeling is exactly what I would feel. BUT, I found that everytime there was change it was like he had left all over again for a few weeks. Then the new routine would set in and I could get thru it with some sanity. I hope hope hope you find this too. Its the unknown that is so scary. Hang in there. Have faith tha he will come home to you.

I'm sure this is very tough for you, but you've made it this far and that makes you a very strong woman! Keep the faith. Think positive thoughts as much as you can and keep busy. He's in god's hands and he loves you. He will do what he can do come back to you! We are all here for you! :hug

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:prayers to you and your beloved over the next few months

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:hugs Hang in there! Breathe! :hugs

i know how you feel i lost it when my best friend was killed and it was supposed to be "safe" but something happens EVERYWEEK i still cant get hope back but im trying.. after r&r i found out i was preggo and im even more scared.. just take it day by day and be thankful EVERYTIME you hear his voice..

i have been through the grieving thing and it never gets any easier.. each day is harder but when i hear his voice i know im safe!!

I dont think I have much to say that will help....

but I would like to offer you a hug :bigsadhug

I thought the same thing. But, you MUST stay postive. It really is the only thing that you can do. :) HUGS.

Stay strong and positive - don't think about what might happen - you'll make yourself sick with worry.

My hubby is in Baghdad as well, and I actually had another military spouse(of all ppl) try to get me worked up by saying.."OMG BAGHDAD IS ONE OF THE DANGEROUS PLACES" !! Umm.. Danger is anywhere and everywhere, and we loose more ppl in our own town in a day than we loose over there. I try to think logically and rationally. When you look at the number of troops over there, and the number of troops killed, or injured, the numbers are pretty small in comparison when you think about it. Stay strong.<hugs>

Thank You all for the support. It so hard having him gone and the time hes going to be home is soon but I'm still scared because I've heard so many stories about how the men get killed right when they get there or right when they are about to leave.
I just want him home. Thats all i want I just want him home!!!!
DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Can anyone please tell me who lost their DF? I haven't been on in a bit (since DH came home). Just want to know who needs the extra prayers.