I am officially into my first deployment. I can't remember if I told him I loved him. I hugged him, kissed him, gave him my note, and can't remember if I told him I loved him. I said it over and over in the letter, but I can't remember if I SAID it. I was shaking like a leaf when I handed him my note. I folded it like I used to fold them in high school. DS lost it last night because he thought that when me and DH went to smoke that daddy was leaving. So of course I lost it too. errrr...why can't I remember? I can remember every single other word said this morning, but I can't remember the most important part. I took my neighbor with me and left the boys with her hubby and I can still remember feeling like my heart was torn in two when she was driving away from his unit.:unlove Completely ripped apart. I keep telling myself that I can do this. I can handle it. He isn't gone for long, but it is just the fact that when he comes home, he is leaving again and after that, the same story until next year. I keep thinking, my mom did it while my dad was deployed and she was fine. I deployed and I was fine. People do it everyday, I know. Now it is my turn. I gotta pick up the slack, I just gotta. Sorry for rambling, but it feels good to get it out. Army Wives comes on tonight so I can cry some more. Woohoo...*sarcasm* ------>off to fill my time with the Disney Channel and not my DH's laughter. *sniff*

BJ

Hang in there sweetie!! The first part is the hardest but it does get easier. I felt like my heart was ripping apart too. Now it's just filled with more love and the excitement of what we'll do when he comes home. You can do this!!

:hugs The hardest part is when they first leave. Hang in there! :hugs

I know how you feel, saying goodbye is so hard.

My DB actually dropped me off at the airport after r&r and I couldn't say anything and don't even remember if I did. I gave him a hug and kiss and walked away. I guess I didn't want him to see me cry. I did look back once and made eye contact and that set the tears flowing. I went to the store to buy tissues and the lady gave me the box behind the counter, lol.

You can do this!

Hang in their!..you'll do fine..time will go fast or at least we all hope!!

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do. Give yourself time to adjust. Cry till it hurts. Eat a gallon of icecream. After a few days it will wear off, and you will keep busy and get into your routine. We are here for you :)

Thank you guys so much! I appreciate all of your kind words.

:hugehug Saying goodbye sucks. Plain and simple. The first few weeks will be lousy, but you will find a new routine for yourself and the kids, you'll figure out what makes you smile and what makes you cry, you'll find ways to bridge the distance, and you'll be okay. I'm here if you ever want to talk. :)

i'm sure you said i love you, and even if you didn't, i'm sure he knows it...it's words that are sometimes not necessary when it's with people that just know..."you say it best when you say nothing at all"

sorry, i tend to relate lyrics to life...my point is, you can make it through this deployment with flying colors, and you always have us to support you through it! :hugehug

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