Just having one of those days....

I know I have to be strong right now, but I miss him so much. He is always on missions and lets just say they are very dangerous. I know he is really good at what he does and I am so happy and proud of him. I am just scared and I want my baby back already. I hate feeling like this because I am smart enough to know that I am lucky to hear from him and everything. I know a lot of you girls probably have it harder, and it feels wrong of me to complain...but I just miss him so much. Everyone around me always seems so negative, and that doesn't help much ether. Lately I have been hearing a lot about girls having their guys coming home for R&R. I am really happy for them, but I also feel like "Come on already! When will I get to have that?!":sigh I am trying to be patient, but the days here are getting hard without him. I miss him so much. I am trying my best to pull myself out of this and look on the brighter side. I always do. But that is kind of annoying too. It's like I try so hard to be strong that I even do it when I'm alone. He's been gone for about 3mths. now and I have probably only cried hard like 5 times. It's like I can't ever allow myself to let it out because I tell myself I shouldn't worry and be sad. I tell myself I am lucky and that it could be worse than it is. I do truly believe that, but it's also annoying that I cant ever just get a good cry in. Does anyone else do this? Just requesting prayers and some encouraging words please.


I'm sooo ready for R&R....or phone call....or online chat
I hope this mission he's on goes well for him, and he is back at his base soon.
Praying he is safe.

We all have our hard days, sweets :glomp

:hugs Stop beating yourself up. Whether you see it or not, you are doing a great job! And give yourself permission to be human. You have emotions, you have moments when those emotions are so strong that they need to come out. Give yourself permission to cry. It really is a healthy thing to do. And once you've let out all of the emotion, you can move forward even stronger than before. Honey, you can do this. You will be okay. PM me if you even need anything or just want to vent. K?

Go eat some icecream :P

:hugs It OK to cry, to vent, to be....you are doing an awesome job!:hugs

Thanks ladies

Yes hon.. I feel like that alot recently. I understand where you are coming from.. DH used to get on every day to chat and now I rarely see him or hear from him. PM me if you need too.

I'm glad I'm not the only one tonight feeling BLAH.

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I feel the same! We can do this, what other choice do we have.

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I've been having hard days as well hun, and they suck. My sleeping patterns are non-existant. You're doing great though. Keep your head up. It's okay to cry... I cried myself to sleep last night, then I woke up and did more. It happens. Let it out. :hugs

I feel the same! We can do this, what other choice do we have.

We don't have any other choice, but I think we do owe this to them. Sometimes it doesn't get easier. I think this up coming deployment is going to be worse than the first one. This time I will be there to see him off and when he gets back. It will be the first time we are in the same zip code. Right now he is always gone even though he's not on deployment so I am in this constant blah. Now they are doing drills so he is not in contact. It fucking blows. :unlove

I think I will know what you mean. My db just left today for a year-long deployment and it's REALLY rough. I miss him like crazy already. And I'm worried as hell. I want him here, I don't want to have to miss him for so long... We're all here for you when it's hard. PM me or anything if you need it. You're both in my thoughts and prayers. It'll be okay.

I've been having hard days as well hun, and they suck. My sleeping patterns are non-existant. You're doing great though. Keep your head up. It's okay to cry... I cried myself to sleep last night, then I woke up and did more. It happens. Let it out. :hugs


yes! the earliest i have gone to bed since db left is 1:00am....I'm usually not in bed till about 2am or 3 though.
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But Thank you ladies. I really don't know where I would be without all of you.
He called today, so I am feeling better. He has a 7 day mission coming up though, that will be the longest one for us so far....but we can do it!

Sweetie - allow yourself to cry, it's perfectly okay. If I need to cry I try and wait until bedtime when my children are asleep and cry myself to sleep. Don't hold it all in - find some friends on this site to support you and be there for you when things are tough if people around you don't understand. You've survived 3 months - well done! You should be very proud of yourself. I've PM'd you.