I just want to say to those of you that gave me support last night in the thread I made thank you.

I took some of your advice and I am attempting to get over a hurdle today. I called Tricare and got a list of providers for grief counselors. I'm going to talk some things over with my mom and either today or tomorrow will set up an appointment.

Please just give me some good vibes. I know I need to do this for myself but I'm scared right now. This is scarier then the day I had to bury them. I'm goig to have to relive all of the emotions that I had buried and I'm just..... numb.

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Grief counseling is wonderful, I promise.

It is easier by the way if you have something to do with your hands while you talk... I was a kid so there was always play dough available to me.... but I promise.. It makes it a LOT easier... slinkies are great too.

helps release your nervous energy while you talk... so that you can actually open up and talk.

and I promise... if you have a good counselor... you will feel WORLDS better in no time. and if you DONT like your counselor.. DONT be afraid to try another one. because speaking from experience.... if you don't like your counselor... money is just being wasted going there... you won't be willing to open up and you will dread going EVERY SINGLE TIME.

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relax. it helps :)

It's hard in the beginning. But it does help alot to figure things out in your head. :hugs

THAT'S AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I understand why you would be scared but I think it's going to be a huge step in the right direction! I really hopes it helps you! :goodvibes :hugs

:hugs I'm so glad that you've decided to do this! I'm still here if you need me...

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Grief counseling is wonderful, I promise.

It is easier by the way if you have something to do with your hands while you talk... I was a kid so there was always play dough available to me.... but I promise.. It makes it a LOT easier... slinkies are great too.

helps release your nervous energy while you talk... so that you can actually open up and talk.

and I promise... if you have a good counselor... you will feel WORLDS better in no time. and if you DONT like your counselor.. DONT be afraid to try another one. because speaking from experience.... if you don't like your counselor... money is just being wasted going there... you won't be willing to open up and you will dread going EVERY SINGLE TIME.

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relax. it helps :)

You know I chuckled when i read the Playdoh comment because I was thinking last night "I wonder if they'd let me color in a coloring book while I talked??" I know it sounds funny but it just made me chuckle to myself.

:hugs I'm so glad that you've decided to do this! I'm still here if you need me...

thanks hon :hugehuge

I can't wait to see you.

Im so glad you are seeking help, now just stick with it, I know its scary, but it will help in the long run. So many :hugs .

You know I chuckled when i read the Playdoh comment because I was thinking last night "I wonder if they'd let me color in a coloring book while I talked??" I know it sounds funny but it just made me chuckle to myself.

if they DONT let you color... then they dont do a very good job... you need to do whatever HELPS YOU.
if you want to color... then I HIGHLY suggest you buy the crayola 150 crayons pack :D and a disney princess coloring book.

those are MY weapons of choice :D

And I colored too! actually, because I was a kid.. there was a SPECIAL coloring book for me specifically designed to help with the grieving process... I still color to this day :D

good for you. this is a major step.

remember what you said about fighting for your life in the hospital & fighting for your life now. going to counselling is part of the fight & you will be victorious.

I am so proud of you for taking this step. I really hope it helps (I'm sure it will). You have to let those emotions out. As much as you're "coping" now, keeping them inside will only make it harder in the long run. You are absolutely doing the right thing, and I am so glad you are doing it. :hugs

this is great. you'll be glad you did this someday. Its a stepping stone to some peace.

Thats great that you are taking this step. I hope it does you a world of good.

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You can do it sweetie! Just remember in the long ran it will hopefully help you so much!
I already think your a very strong women. That was my first impression when I started reading your posts a little bit ago.
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What a big step! You should feel very proud of yourself! You are on the right path!!!
Keep us updated on how your first appointment goes!

good for you. this is a major step.

remember what you said about fighting for your life in the hospital & fighting for your life now. going to counselling is part of the fight & you will be victorious.

Your going to make me :tears but what you said is true.

Sending you lots and lots of :goodvibes

Kristina I know it will help you. I am so proud of you for taking that step. You also know that I will be there for you to talk to. I may not always know what to say but I can be an ear to let you just get it all out.