So the calling hours and funeral are over. Now all the noise has stopped. People are flying and driving back to their home states and... the house is quiet and I'm alone.

I'm having such a hard time dealing with all of this and to my surprise Seth has been less than supportive. I thought that he would be able to help me through all of this but he hasn't said anything. :sigh

I still cannot grasp the concept that I'll never hear his voice or see him smile ever again...not in person. I cannot understand that. I'm still waiting for him to come back, to send me a stupid chain text message that's some sex joke or something stupid like that. Or have him knock on the door and ring the doorbell 10 million times just to annoy me instead of just walking in.

I believe he's in a better place right now...but it doesnt make the tears stop right now.

:sigh

:hugehug Sometimes it seems so unreal when we lose someone so unexpectedly, and then reality sets in and we experience the loss all over again. I'm sorry you are going through this. Unfortunately, deployment often causes a certain degree of immunity to the sadness of loss. I'm sure Seth wants to support you, but is having a hard time in his current situation.

:bigsadhug I'm sorry you are having suck a hard time :hugs

:hugs im so sorry hun i lost my best friend in 8th grade and im well aware of the pain and the grief your going through right now
as for your DB i *think* he might feel helpless in this situation since he is gone i know thats how i felt the other night when i found out my sisters best friend (she lived with us and we always considered her our sister) is battling with leukemia i dont even know what to say or who to say it to so i just try and not talk about it because i am so far away and all i want to do is hug her and i cant. if that makes any sense?

:hugs I'm sorry hon.

:bigsadhug
its always so hard to loose a good friend like that, if you need anyone to talk to, you can PM me.

:hugs i'm so sorry hun!!!!
i'm here if you wanna talk!

I wish I could do more for you sweetie. What you are feeling is normal though. :hugs :pray :goodvibes

:hugs i'm sorry girl!