And about EVERYTHING!! I dont know what to do. I feel that if I dont get it out here DB might get an email I dont even want to send him. I havent heard from him in a week. He has signed online. Im trying to give him time to respond, he just signed in yesterday for the first time in 4 days. He hasnt written me. I had my horrible dream that he got shot (but lived). Last night I couldnt sleep at all. I was up every couple of hours. Im doubting everything. My mind is going 110mph. Can I do this? Do I want to do this? Do I deserve him? He is the best person who has come in my life. And Im so afraid that Im going to lose it. Last night I was freaking out cause I realized Im barely a month into this and its going to be 8 more months before I can see him again. I havent talked to him since he left. He told me he would call when he got settled in. I am not too surprised I havent heard from him, cause I usually had to call him. Man, why am I doing this?

Man, why am I doing this?

He is the best person who has come in my life.

You answered your own question. Deployments suck, they're not easy- and this JUST started for you. Something tells me you'll start to get used to it, and he WILL call- give him time, and try to distract yourself with other activities... sitting and "waiting" for him will make the time really drag.

well, just think of it this way: he doesn't have much to do out there and maybe he didn't have anything to say. i mean if you go on youtube there are so many videos american soldiers make...you can tell they're bored. it's not like he's out there being a skank womanizer...so at least you can be secure in that. just give it time, be strong and don't send the email. just keep being supportive. when i want to yell at my dh for not emailing me i just post on here, calm down a bit and then a bit later i write him a really sweet one about how much i love him and how lucky i am instead. you don't want to add to his stress but be his destresser.

You answered your own question.

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If he's the best person that has ever been in your life, then it's worth it to keep with it. Just be confident in the fact that he's okay and he will call eventually. Until then, KEEP BUSY!! Hang in there :hug :hug

well, just think of it this way: he doesn't have much to do out there and maybe he didn't have anything to say. i mean if you go on youtube there are so many videos american soldiers make...you can tell they're bored. it's not like he's out there being a skank womanizer...so at least you can be secure in that. just give it time, be strong and don't send the email. just keep being supportive. when i want to yell at my dh for not emailing me i just post on here, calm down a bit and then a bit later i write him a really sweet one about how much i love him and how lucky i am instead. you don't want to add to his stress but be his destresser.

I know. I guess what kind of bugs me is I sent him 2 really sweet emails about how I love him and miss him. He read them when he signed in, but nothing. He told me to give him time to respond cause he cant always do it right away. Im trying so hard to wait. I dont know why its all of the suddend getting to me right now. I think I feel like Im losing contact. I keep trying to tell myself that it was just this past week, not every week is like this. I dont know....I just keep going back and forth in my head. I feel like my brain is having seizures lol.

I know. I guess what kind of bugs me is I sent him 2 really sweet emails about how I love him and miss him. He read them when he signed in, but nothing. He told me to give him time to respond cause he cant always do it right away. Im trying so hard to wait.

It's hard. Trust us, we all know how tough it can be. What we don't know is how far the walk is to the MWR or where ever the computers are. We dont' know how long they have to wait in line to use the computers. We don't know that they only get 20-30 minutes IF there is internet connection available for them to use. We don't realize that they are always at the beck and call of their command. If someone above them needs something, then they only get 5 minutes to sign online.

Hang in there. It's tough and it will drive you nuts. Take comfort in seeing when he logs in to read his e-mails. I would always track my guy's sign in date on myspace. If he didn't sign in yet that day, I would go to his friend's myspace (they are in the same platoon). As long as one of them had signed in that day, I knew my guy was okay. Even if I didn't hear from him.

It will get easier as time goes on. Trust me. Don't give up yet. Give it about 3 months into the deployment and then ask yourself all the questions you first asked in your opening post. :hugehug You'll make it through. I promise!

Take this with a grain of salt, since my DB is being an ass right now.... but take a deep breath and chill. You are going to be fine. Somehow you will find reserves of patience and understanding and love that you never knew existed. It won't be easy, because deployments seriously suck, but you can do this.

My huusband would have time to sign on, read his emails and then his time would be up on the computers. So there was little time to respond to what was written. Hope that is a little encouragement. I am sure he loved reading your emails though.

Take comfort in seeing when he logs in to read his e-mails. I would always track my guy's sign in date on myspace. If he didn't sign in yet that day, I would go to his friend's myspace (they are in the same platoon). As long as one of them had signed in that day, I knew my guy was okay. Even if I didn't hear from him.



Thats exactly what I have done. When DB didnt sign in for a few days I went to his best friends page cause they are in the same platoon. So, that did bring comfort, knowing they must be out. I think Im over reacting a bit much. And I think I need to be slapped. :)

I know. I guess what kind of bugs me is I sent him 2 really sweet emails about how I love him and miss him. He read them when he signed in, but nothing. He told me to give him time to respond cause he cant always do it right away. Im trying so hard to wait. I dont know why its all of the suddend getting to me right now. I think I feel like Im losing contact. I keep trying to tell myself that it was just this past week, not every week is like this. I dont know....I just keep going back and forth in my head. I feel like my brain is having seizures lol.

You're right, not all weeks will be like this.
The short version: :hugehug Hang in there! The first few months are tough, but you will find your stride and most days will be better than these.

The long version:
DB is a lousy correspondent. He gets busy and will still read his email, check his myspace, but not take the time to type anything out. I finally had to let him know that when I don't here anything from him for more than a week I start to worry (I didn't have to be specific) and that if he was too busy for me (guilt trip) the least he could do is put my mind at ease. Now, when he's really busy, I get an email on day 8 that says, "Hey, Hun, Still here. Call you soon." Soon usually means/meant a few days. Since he started thinking of me on that 8th day, now I usually get a call instead - even if he can only talk for a few minutes.

My DB told me that even though I may not get emails as often as I would like, He still thinks about me, loves me and misses me. I hope that you here from him soon. :hugs :hugs

yea i agree with some of the other ladies... I know my DB has to wait in line for a computer and then when he gets on he's being constantly tormented to get off so he either just reads my emails so he can respond later or sometimes doesnt even read them and just replies so at least i get to hear from him. As for the doubting things, I completely understand... you know he loves you and you know you love him and you cant figure out why you think someonething is wrong and that its not gonna work out... I find myself in the same situation. I think its just trying to find a fault cuz it just seems to good to be true. So hang in there. the deployment will be over before you know it

Take a deep breath, be positive & :hang:hugehug It will all be ok sweety