You know what to do, so do it! :D How are you? How did your week go? What's new? What's old? What's up? What's down? Any R&R fever going on? How about homecoming fever? Come on folks..... spill it! :giggle




Me- It's been over 8 weeks since I've heard from DB. He now has comm access, but he just isn't responding to me. Many people who know and care about me question my decision to stand by him. They don't want to see me hurt. I am hurting, but I am choosing to have faith in the guy that I know and adore. He is under more stress than I can imagine, and I think that shutting out the serious stuff back home, including me, is his way of dealing right now. It's not okay to shut me out. However, given the way I have withdrawn from many of my own close family and friends for the past 2 months, I can understand where he is coming from. So I'm taking some time and space to deal with my issues while giving him time and space to figure out what he wants. Neither of us are ending things. We're sorta on hold while more pressing issues are dealt with. If the deployment gods smile upon us, we only have 6-8 weeks left. Then we can begin the readjustment process and figure out how to proceed. Our future is very uncertain right now, but I'm not giving up hope in the good thing that we have.

In other news, I threw an awesome 4th of July party for 20 people, watched the fireworks on the beach in the pouring rain while tipsy from sangria, had drinks with a friend, and went to the local fair this weekend. I made friends with the National Guard guys at the fair and got my picture taken when I climbed on top of a humvee. It was fun. I'm having dinner with a friend tomorrow night, and I'm looking for fun trouble this weekend to make me smile. I refuse to sit at home and wallow any longer. It's time to get back to being me.

You know what to do, so do it! :D How are you? How did your week go? What's new? What's old? What's up? What's down? Any R&R fever going on? How about homecoming fever? Come on folks..... spill it! :giggle




Me- It's been over 8 weeks since I've heard from DB. He now has comm access, but he just isn't responding to me. Many people who know and care about me question my decision to stand by him. They don't want to see me hurt. I am hurting, but I am choosing to have faith in the guy that I know and adore. He is under more stress than I can imagine, and I think that shutting out the serious stuff back home, including me, is his way of dealing right now. It's not okay to shut me out. However, given the way I have withdrawn from many of my own close family and friends for the past 2 months, I can understand where he is coming from. So I'm taking some time and space to deal with my issues while giving him time and space to figure out what he wants. Neither of us are ending things. We're sorta on hold while more pressing issues are dealt with. If the deployment gods smile upon us, we only have 6-8 weeks left. Then we can begin the readjustment process and figure out how to proceed. Our future is very uncertain right now, but I'm not giving up hope in the good thing that we have.

In other news, I threw an awesome 4th of July party for 20 people, watched the fireworks on the beach in the pouring rain while tipsy from sangria, had drinks with a friend, and went to the local fair this weekend. I made friends with the National Guard guys at the fair and got my picture taken when I climbed on top of a humvee. It was fun. I'm having dinner with a friend tomorrow night, and I'm looking for fun trouble this weekend to make me smile. I refuse to sit at home and wallow any longer. It's time to get back to being me.

Good for you for staying strong and standing by your man. I hope only the best for you both :hugs And your party sounded very fun :)

As for me, my week has been awful only because I still haven't figured out a way to deal with my emotions while DH is deployed. There are days I'm optimitic and happy (the days he calls and talks to me), and other days I want to do nothing more but cry (the days he cant get a connection and get online to talk). So I need to figure out how to deal with this deployment better. It hasn't even been 2 months yet :gloomy. I've been keeping busy with buying him stuff for care packages, but I need to figure out something else to do too because I'm going to run out of money if I continue to spend so much on care package supplies!!!

:hugs to us all.

Aw, Army Girl, I hope the two of you can work things out! :hugehug :hugehug Glad you had SOME fun, though.

ME: DB's parents came down this weekend and they rented a UHaul so they could help me get my furniture from Ikea in Burbank. So, we all got the furniture, loaded it up, and they helped unload it at my new place. Then DB's dad actually assembled ALL the furniture himself. We were all so exhausted by the end - but I got to know them better and I actually miss them now that they're gone.

ArmyE'sGirl--I really hope everything works out for you! That must be so hard, but you're doing an amazing job of looking at the positives in everything!

Mrs. O'Leske--I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with this deployment :(. My suggestion would be to try something new to get your mind off of him for a few hours each day. Maybe try a new class, or join a new club, or explore an old interest? The days I feel really shitty the only way i can snap myself out of it is to simply get out of the house and think about something else for a few hours. If how well your day goes depends on whether or not you talk to him, you're going to be miserable too much of the time! I hope things get better :hugs

Hey,
Im doing really good today! :)

Db should (and I say should because it changes all the time) be home tonight!! :yay

Im so anxious and nervous and excited... I feel like its Christmas Eve and I know Im getting a big present or something... agh. I just keep looking at the clock and my phone...

Im so over this deployment and just want my db home already!!

You know what to do, so do it! :D How are you? How did your week go? What's new? What's old? What's up? What's down? Any R&R fever going on? How about homecoming fever? Come on folks..... spill it! :giggle




Me- It's been over 8 weeks since I've heard from DB. He now has comm access, but he just isn't responding to me. Many people who know and care about me question my decision to stand by him. They don't want to see me hurt. I am hurting, but I am choosing to have faith in the guy that I know and adore. He is under more stress than I can imagine, and I think that shutting out the serious stuff back home, including me, is his way of dealing right now. It's not okay to shut me out. However, given the way I have withdrawn from many of my own close family and friends for the past 2 months, I can understand where he is coming from. So I'm taking some time and space to deal with my issues while giving him time and space to figure out what he wants. Neither of us are ending things. We're sorta on hold while more pressing issues are dealt with. If the deployment gods smile upon us, we only have 6-8 weeks left. Then we can begin the readjustment process and figure out how to proceed. Our future is very uncertain right now, but I'm not giving up hope in the good thing that we have.

In other news, I threw an awesome 4th of July party for 20 people, watched the fireworks on the beach in the pouring rain while tipsy from sangria, had drinks with a friend, and went to the local fair this weekend. I made friends with the National Guard guys at the fair and got my picture taken when I climbed on top of a humvee. It was fun. I'm having dinner with a friend tomorrow night, and I'm looking for fun trouble this weekend to make me smile. I refuse to sit at home and wallow any longer. It's time to get back to being me.

aww im proud of you ur alot stronger than me if i was in your situation i dont know what id do. i am easily stressed tho. lol but im glad ur stickin with him cuz im sure you two will be just fine and im glad to hear you had a great 4th!!

as for me my 4th was ok we went to see fireworks but they were cancelled but we sat at the beach and tanned alll day and thats enough for me. db decided to take me to outback since the fireworks were cancelled so overall it was an ok 4th :) but db might be proposin soon and im super excited and last but not least i quit my job today :( but it was too far and pay was too little so wish me luck on findin a new one before rent is due :D

Good for you for staying strong and standing by your man. I hope only the best for you both :hugs And your party sounded very fun :)

As for me, my week has been awful only because I still haven't figured out a way to deal with my emotions while DH is deployed. There are days I'm optimitic and happy (the days he calls and talks to me), and other days I want to do nothing more but cry (the days he cant get a connection and get online to talk). So I need to figure out how to deal with this deployment better. It hasn't even been 2 months yet :gloomy. I've been keeping busy with buying him stuff for care packages, but I need to figure out something else to do too because I'm going to run out of money if I continue to spend so much on care package supplies!!!

:hugs to us all.
Yes, my party was very fun. We had tons of food and alcohol, plus the pool, the beach, the boat, the hammock, the water balloons (:devil), and the fireworks. It was a fantastic party!

Girl, you need to find some other way of making yourself happy. Relying on comms will only lead to disappointment. Are there any classes or hobbies that pique your interest? Maybe a volunteer opportunity you could embrace? Find a regularly occurring thing and get involved. Do it for yourself because you are worth the effort and the enjoyment. :hugehug

Aw, Army Girl, I hope the two of you can work things out! :hugehug :hugehug Glad you had SOME fun, though.

ME: DB's parents came down this weekend and they rented a UHaul so they could help me get my furniture from Ikea in Burbank. So, we all got the furniture, loaded it up, and they helped unload it at my new place. Then DB's dad actually assembled ALL the furniture himself. We were all so exhausted by the end - but I got to know them better and I actually miss them now that they're gone.

Wow! That was really nice of his Dad. How is the new place shaping up?

And thanks for the well wishes. We have a pretty long road ahead of us, but I'm willing to walk it with him.

ArmyE'sGirl--I really hope everything works out for you! That must be so hard, but you're doing an amazing job of looking at the positives in everything!


Thanks. :mrgreen

Hey,
Im doing really good today! :)

Db should (and I say should because it changes all the time) be home tonight!! :yay

Im so anxious and nervous and excited... I feel like its Christmas Eve and I know Im getting a big present or something... agh. I just keep looking at the clock and my phone...

Im so over this deployment and just want my db home already!!

:xfingers that things go as they should. Have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Armygirl--I commend you for sticking by your guy. I think you are very strong, and I agree that sometimes people (including the ones left at home!) shut everyone out when things get to be rough. Maybe he just thinks nobody at home will truly understand since they don't really know what he's going through and it's too much to explain right now. Anyway, I hope you hear from him soon and that everything works out fine. Let us know!

Me: I just hit 2 weeks yesterday. DF is currently training to go overseas, so he is still in the states right now. I have been reading more and more news articles about how dangerous things are getting overseas and it is making me super scared. I think the fear and uncertainty is the hardest things I'm dealing with right now. I'm getting into my own routine and I'm keeping busy, but I am not sure the fear will ever go away.

aww im proud of you ur alot stronger than me if i was in your situation i dont know what id do. i am easily stressed tho. lol but im glad ur stickin with him cuz im sure you two will be just fine and im glad to hear you had a great 4th!!

as for me my 4th was ok we went to see fireworks but they were cancelled but we sat at the beach and tanned alll day and thats enough for me. db decided to take me to outback since the fireworks were cancelled so overall it was an ok 4th :) but db might be proposin soon and im super excited and last but not least i quit my job today :( but it was too far and pay was too little so wish me luck on findin a new one before rent is due :D

Ya know... I don't think I am any stronger than any other woman on this board. When tested, we rise to the occasion. Why? Because we are military SOs. It's just what we do.

Sorry your 4th didn't go quite as planned. But laying out at the beach does sound very nice. I can't wait to hit the beach in August, baby!

Yes, my party was very fun. We had tons of food and alcohol, plus the pool, the beach, the boat, the hammock, the water balloons (:devil), and the fireworks. It was a fantastic party!

Girl, you need to find some other way of making yourself happy. Relying on comms will only lead to disappointment. Are there any classes or hobbies that pique your interest? Maybe a volunteer opportunity you could embrace? Find a regularly occurring thing and get involved. Do it for yourself because you are worth the effort and the enjoyment. :hugehug


Wow! That was really nice of his Dad. How is the new place shaping up?

And thanks for the well wishes. We have a pretty long road ahead of us, but I'm willing to walk it with him.


Thanks. :mrgreen



:xfingers that things go as they should. Have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New place looks fabulous! My room is 156-160 sq ft. It feels HUGE!!!!!!!!

Armygirl--I commend you for sticking by your guy. I think you are very strong, and I agree that sometimes people (including the ones left at home!) shut everyone out when things get to be rough. Maybe he just thinks nobody at home will truly understand since they don't really know what he's going through and it's too much to explain right now. Anyway, I hope you hear from him soon and that everything works out fine. Let us know!

Me: I just hit 2 weeks yesterday. DF is currently training to go overseas, so he is still in the states right now. I have been reading more and more news articles about how dangerous things are getting overseas and it is making me super scared. I think the fear and uncertainty is the hardest things I'm dealing with right now. I'm getting into my own routine and I'm keeping busy, but I am not sure the fear will ever go away.

Thanks. I'm not getting my hopes up to hear from him. It would be nice, but I no longer expect it. It's easier that way.

And please, whatever you do, do NOT read/watch/listen to news about the Middle East. For real, you will unnecessarily scare yourself silly. I know what it is like to crave information. I am a semi-reformed news junkie. But it makes things worse. It really does. Delete CNN.com from your favorites. Cancel your subscription to the Times. Ban NPR news from your radio. Trust me, it's the enemy to your sanity!!!

Week's not bad at all :) DB is ACTUALLY in the states! He's still technically deployed (we tried to see if we could meet, but his COs and bosses are keeping close tabs on everyone, so phooey :( ), but he has a training session here that he had to attend so they flew him back for a week. He turned his cell on so we'd be able to talk every night...like old times :wub

It's going to suck when he leaves again and I can't call him when I want to...but we're almost to the halfway point!! :hula :hula :woohoo

ArmyE...:hugs Im thinking about you :glomp

Week's not bad at all :) DB is ACTUALLY in the states! He's still technically deployed, but he has a training session here that he had to attend so they flew him back for a week. He turned his cell on so we'd be able to talk every night...like old times :wub

It's going to suck when he leaves again and I can't call him when I want to...but we're almost to the halfway point!! :hula :hula :woohoo

Army...:hugs Im thinking about you :glomp

OMG that is so cool that he is in the States. That must be a bit of a relief for you, to know that he is safe. :woohoo Oh, and enjoy those nightly calls. I'm sure they are :cloud9

PS.... :glomp is one of my favorites. Thank you!!! :D

This week was okay. Spent Fourth of July in Vegas, having some much needed drinks :cp Twenty-five-ish days till the halfway point and a little over a month till the end of summer school :happydance

Looking into taking a "me" trip...maybe to Paris...found some cheap flights and hostels for this fall! This deployment feels never ending and I need something to look forward to.


ArmyE...:glomp and :hugehug to you

:grouphug to us all!

This week was okay. Spent Fourth of July in Vegas, having some much needed drinks :cp Twenty-five-ish days till the halfway point and a little over a month till the end of summer school :happydance

Looking into taking a "me" trip...maybe to Paris...found some cheap flights and hostels for this fall! This deployment feels never ending and I need something to look forward to.


ArmyE...:glomp and :hugehug to you

:grouphug to us all!

Now that, my friend, is a fantastic way to treat yourself. Sweet!!!! I like your style. :happy

My week has been good. My 4th of July was fun! Saw fireworks at a casino by my house. I head to Great Lakes, IL on Tuesday, I am driving with my DF dad, mom and brother. I still got some stuff to do before I'm officially ready, aside from that everything is going pretty well.

My week has been good. My 4th of July was fun! Saw fireworks at a casino by my house. I head to Great Lakes, IL on Tuesday, I am driving with my DF dad, mom and brother. I still got some stuff to do before I'm officially ready, aside from that everything is going pretty well.

Have fun on your road trip! I (L) road trips.

First of all Army E, I am thinking of you and praying for you. I really admire your strength! I am sorry you are going through this right now!

Ok, so, wow...I'm in this group now! This is my 1st week! :cp I'm going to look forward to these weekly check-ins. So, I've made it through! It's been a little bit of a rollercoaster with my emotions...but I say that I've done VERY well for the 1st week...much better than I expected, especially since I was supposed to be visiting him from 7/4-7/7...until he deployed 8 days early and we had to cancel the trip. BUT, I've been able to talk to him through email more than I expected. So, come on 1 year, get on with it! ;)

My week has been good! I was in SF for the weekend visiting family and got to play tourist with one of my girlfriends! I also got my last phone call before DB comes back... we are only 60% through with the donut, but it's the first "last" milestone (if that makes any sense). Work is slow this week, which is goos because I'm still coming out of vacation mode :)

ArmyEGirl, your party sounds like a blast! I'm glad you're channeling your energy into good, positive things and trying to get back to being, well, you. :)

I'm doing okay. I have a lot of my plate.

Dh will be home next week :yay :dance
But a lot of my friends are dealing w/ some pretty harsh stuff so I've been trying to talk to all of them & still deal w. my stuff. It's been an interesting week.

Have fun on your road trip! I (L) road trips.

Thanks! :D

My days have been up and down.
I can't believe I'm only 18 freakin' days into this.
I do have something to look forward to though- going to Texas sometime in August when DB gets a 4day pass before he is off to the sandbox.

I joined a gym a couple days ago. I was using the one at my college, which is about 20 minutes away, but a $20 month at this gym near my house is about a third of what I've been paying in gas.
So on that note, I'm working out more! :)

Today started out really crappy, I was in one of those crying "I'm not going to see him for so long" kind of moods, so I went to the gym and kicked my ass back into shape. Then DB called. :) He always seems to call when I'm having a crappy day, it's like he knows that he has some cheering up to do! :lovestruck

Never thought I'd say this, but I can't wait until September so I can get completely swamped with homework and work. Time is going by too slowly at this point.

my good news this week is that i had a second job interview with a company that pays more than it is legal to pay an english major :sarcasm. and i really hit it off with everyone i talked to. at the end of the scheduled interviews, they called the president in to talk to me which is always a good sign :D

and i found out my mom is visiting a friend in Scottsdale this weekend, which is only a couple hundred miles away from me, so i'm going to drive there and meet up with them for a couple of days. yay for weekend trips!

and, DF is not sad anymore. he finally got a mail shipment with a bunch of stuff from me and his family, so that cheered him right up :)

for all of you having rough weeks-- :grouphug

Guess I can join the list now too, since the husband's been gone. Pretty good frame of mind, work is awesome right now, can't complain about that. Of course, like usual, the husband leaves, the kids get sick, including one trip to the ER last weekend. They're doing much better, thankfully. Oh and I just flooded the backyard because I forgot to turn off the hose when filling the pool and I'm almost out of beer! :duh

My days have been up and down.
I can't believe I'm only 18 freakin' days into this.
I do have something to look forward to though- going to Texas sometime in August when DB gets a 4day pass before he is off to the sandbox.

I joined a gym a couple days ago. I was using the one at my college, which is about 20 minutes away, but a $20 month at this gym near my house is about a third of what I've been paying in gas.
So on that note, I'm working out more! :)

Today started out really crappy, I was in one of those crying "I'm not going to see him for so long" kind of moods, so I went to the gym and kicked my ass back into shape. Then DB called. :) He always seems to call when I'm having a crappy day, it's like he knows that he has some cheering up to do! :lovestruck

Never thought I'd say this, but I can't wait until September so I can get completely swamped with homework and work. Time is going by too slowly at this point.

Yes, time does seem to move more slowly when there isn't as much to do. It souinds like the gym may be a good outlet for you. Just don't over do it.

my good news this week is that i had a second job interview with a company that pays more than it is legal to pay an english major :sarcasm. and i really hit it off with everyone i talked to. at the end of the scheduled interviews, they called the president in to talk to me which is always a good sign :D

and i found out my mom is visiting a friend in Scottsdale this weekend, which is only a couple hundred miles away from me, so i'm going to drive there and meet up with them for a couple of days. yay for weekend trips!

and, DF is not sad anymore. he finally got a mail shipment with a bunch of stuff from me and his family, so that cheered him right up :)

for all of you having rough weeks-- :grouphug
Ahem... I was an English major and we can make darn good $$, thankyouverymuch. :giggle I hope things work out for you. Enjoy time with your Mom this weekend!

Guess I can join the list now too, since the husband's been gone. Pretty good frame of mind, work is awesome right now, can't complain about that. Of course, like usual, the husband leaves, the kids get sick, including one trip to the ER last weekend. They're doing much better, thankfully. Oh and I just flooded the backyard because I forgot to turn off the hose when filling the pool and I'm almost out of beer! :duh

Well I'm glad that the kids are feeling better. ER visits are no fun. And may I suggest a beer run in your future? You can come raid my fridge. I currently have Michelobe Ultra, Sam Adams Summer Ale, Blue Moon, and Corona. All left from July 4th.

Well I see df in a few days and im a anxious wreck!! how in the heck am i going to sleep these next 3 nights???

oh hunnie im so sorry to hear that you havent heard any word from your SO...and i must admit that you are such a strong person to be able to commit like that and i must applaud you for it! :handshake i hope that you hear from him soon i know that my hubby did that to me but it only lasted about 2 weeks...

as to how i am doing i am currently on vacation with my family in myrtle beach :-) and today was our first day here and it was really windy so i didnt take the 1 year old out but i took the 2 year old because she was really looking forward to it

and i am so anxious for DH's homecoming next month...i am so excited...i just wish that july would end already and that august would be here

i hope that your SO bucks up and emails you or calls you or something...((BIG HUGS)) going your way hun ...take care!!

You know what to do, so do it! :D How are you? How did your week go? What's new? What's old? What's up? What's down? Any R&R fever going on? How about homecoming fever? Come on folks..... spill it! :giggle




Me- It's been over 8 weeks since I've heard from DB. He now has comm access, but he just isn't responding to me. Many people who know and care about me question my decision to stand by him. They don't want to see me hurt. I am hurting, but I am choosing to have faith in the guy that I know and adore. He is under more stress than I can imagine, and I think that shutting out the serious stuff back home, including me, is his way of dealing right now. It's not okay to shut me out. However, given the way I have withdrawn from many of my own close family and friends for the past 2 months, I can understand where he is coming from. So I'm taking some time and space to deal with my issues while giving him time and space to figure out what he wants. Neither of us are ending things. We're sorta on hold while more pressing issues are dealt with. If the deployment gods smile upon us, we only have 6-8 weeks left. Then we can begin the readjustment process and figure out how to proceed. Our future is very uncertain right now, but I'm not giving up hope in the good thing that we have.

In other news, I threw an awesome 4th of July party for 20 people, watched the fireworks on the beach in the pouring rain while tipsy from sangria, had drinks with a friend, and went to the local fair this weekend. I made friends with the National Guard guys at the fair and got my picture taken when I climbed on top of a humvee. It was fun. I'm having dinner with a friend tomorrow night, and I'm looking for fun trouble this weekend to make me smile. I refuse to sit at home and wallow any longer. It's time to get back to being me.

:hugs You're a very strong woman! I hope everything works out for you. :hugs I believe I missed the best party ever! I'm glad you had a good time. And it sounds like the fun is still rolling through this weekend. :thumbsup

emily810 - :eek Don't read any news about the Middle East or watch news related to that or you'll have a much harder time surviving deployment. :panic You can do this, you've got us.

Me: Well I attended 2 parties on the 4th. One was a family setting and the other...I was :drunk. My friend purposely had me drink and stay the night so that I would relax. It felt good to finally relax! :sigh Saturday she took pix of me for dh and I took pix of her family for her brother (just left for bootcamp). Then I ate dinner at her house. Sunday I did yard work. Monday I went to work and attended a support group that MIL formed & I completed my one-time-appearance to that meeting. :rolleyes I went to work today and here I am. Next month should be R&R so I'm super excited. :D

worst week so far by far :( :tears

Well I see df in a few days and im a anxious wreck!! how in the heck am i going to sleep these next 3 nights???
Advil PM? Wine? Pre-bedtime yoga? Just a few suggestions. Oh, and enjoy homecoming!!!!!!!!!!!

oh hunnie im so sorry to hear that you havent heard any word from your SO...and i must admit that you are such a strong person to be able to commit like that and i must applaud you for it! :handshake i hope that you hear from him soon i know that my hubby did that to me but it only lasted about 2 weeks...

as to how i am doing i am currently on vacation with my family in myrtle beach :-) and today was our first day here and it was really windy so i didnt take the 1 year old out but i took the 2 year old because she was really looking forward to it

and i am so anxious for DH's homecoming next month...i am so excited...i just wish that july would end already and that august would be here

i hope that your SO bucks up and emails you or calls you or something...((BIG HUGS)) going your way hun ...take care!!
Thanks. Hopefully DB will recognize and appreciate it when the time is right. But, honestly, he is a guy. Who knows what is going on in his neanderthal brain? :lol

Enjoy Myrtle Beach. A friend just came back from there a few weeks ago. In fact, he and I are having dinner tonight and I plan on pumping him for vacation details. hehehe :)

:hugs You're a very strong woman! I hope everything works out for you. :hugs I believe I missed the best party ever! I'm glad you had a good time. And it sounds like the fun is still rolling through this weekend. :thumbsup

emily810 - :eek Don't read any news about the Middle East or watch news related to that or you'll have a much harder time surviving deployment. :panic You can do this, you've got us.

Me: Well I attended 2 parties on the 4th. One was a family setting and the other...I was :drunk. My friend purposely had me drink and stay the night so that I would relax. It felt good to finally relax! :sigh Saturday she took pix of me for dh and I took pix of her family for her brother (just left for bootcamp). Then I ate dinner at her house. Sunday I did yard work. Monday I went to work and attended a support group that MIL formed & I completed my one-time-appearance to that meeting. :rolleyes I went to work today and here I am. Next month should be R&R so I'm super excited. :D
That sounds like a great 4th, and a pretty darn good weekend all around. What is this support group and why was it a one-time appearance? Sounds like there is a story somewhere in there. :)

worst week so far by far :( :tears
:bigsadhug Oh, Kay, you are handling so much right now. It's not fair. I wish that I could make it go away. :(

ArmyE's Girl-I hope everything works out with your SO soon.

Me-I have been having a couple really bad weeks lately. Although it has been over 2 months since my DB deployed, it didn't really hit me until three weeks ago. Since then I have been going through a lot of lasts with a youth organization that I have been involved with since I was 7 years old. Listening to them give the lecture about patriotism was just extremely hard to hear. Fast forward to this past week. I have spent a lot of time by myself and so my emotions have been going up and down like crazy. My parents left me home alone to go to Illinois to see my dad's best friend from when he was in the navy. So I spent the 4th with just my dog...well whenever I wasn't working. It was also my dog's 5th birthday. My entire week got better on Sunday when I heard from my DB. I got to talk to him for a half an hour. I miss him so much. He was in port for a couple days like he has been every month. Unfortunately he has reached his final destination for deployment. It helps me feel more comfortable that my dad is former navy and has been where my DB is right now but there is still something that bothers me about the whole thing. Anyway that is the update on me.

ArmyE's Girl-I hope everything works out with your SO soon.

Me-I have been having a couple really bad weeks lately. Although it has been over 2 months since my DB deployed, it didn't really hit me until three weeks ago. Since then I have been going through a lot of lasts with a youth organization that I have been involved with since I was 7 years old. Listening to them give the lecture about patriotism was just extremely hard to hear. Fast forward to this past week. I have spent a lot of time by myself and so my emotions have been going up and down like crazy. My parents left me home alone to go to Illinois to see my dad's best friend from when he was in the navy. So I spent the 4th with just my dog...well whenever I wasn't working. It was also my dog's 5th birthday. My entire week got better on Sunday when I heard from my DB. I got to talk to him for a half an hour. I miss him so much. He was in port for a couple days like he has been every month. Unfortunately he has reached his final destination for deployment. It helps me feel more comfortable that my dad is former navy and has been where my DB is right now but there is still something that bothers me about the whole thing. Anyway that is the update on me.

:hugehug The emotional rollercoaster is exhausting. Hang in there. You will find a way to manage everything. I'm glad you got to talk to your DB. I'm sure that was just the pick-me-up you needed. And thanks for the well wishes. I need 'em. :)