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It has just been one of those days, for the past two days. I just don't know what to do anymore.

He called Monday and we talked a little, he told me he would call the next day for sure, because he wouldn't be doing anything. He also said we would get to use the web cam. Well, Tuesday and Wednesday have passed and no call yet. But the really shitty thing is, I sent him a email through myspace saying that he must have gotten busy or something and that I hoped he was safe and all that. But I also said that I needed some lovin's now and then and to please try to send me some love even if it is just a small myspace comment or something. So, I get online today and realize that he had been on read the email, and had time to delete the email I sent him on his yahoo (just saying to check his myspace) but still negelcted to send me a tiny 2 second myspace comment saying "I love you and I'm okay" or "Got the message" or anything. Noramlly, stuff like this wouldn't even phase me, but this deployment is starting to get to me. I tell myself he must have had a good reason, but I just keep thinking "If he had time to go in there read it and check his email and go through everything and delete old stuff then why didn't he have time to send me a two second comment on myspace?!" I am trying so hard to be level headed, I mean I know he loves me and he is usually so good about calling me every chance he gets. But at the same time I don't have much to go by but his calls. It's hard not getting emails or snail mail from him and relying only on his phone calls. Plus he always says things like "I WILL be able to call". I feel bad acting like this, it's not him...it's just this deployment is so frustrating. I can't say he had time to do it and I can't say that he didn't because I have no idea.

Also, he hasn't had his R&R yet and we are almost half way, is this normal? I know it probably is, but I can't help but to envy other people that have had their R&R already.:sigh:no Also, He told me that if they offer him R&R and he thinks that they need him that he is going to stay. Has anyones else's SO done this? I understand that his unit must mean the world to him, and I love him for that, but it also hurts. I just pray they don't need him so he gets to come home for a little while.:pray

I JUST MISS HIM SO MUCH. I'm ready to explode with tears and cry for two days. I'm so frustrated.
This is my first deployment, were at 42% and I have been doing really good...I'm just stuck right now. I just want to scream and cry.

Please help.

:hugs sweetie im so sorry :hugs i would be frustrated to tho if he had time to do all that and didnt even send a simple something back..like yea if it was get on to check real quick and then had to run off then ok but being able to go through everything and read and delete. :hugs i hope he was just pretty vusy and will get to you soon :hugs Im sorry i dont know much about the R&R stuff but maybe talk with him on how you feel about him coming home on R&R:hugs i hope all will be ok. and keep us posted on if you hear from him!

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im sorry you haven't heard from him, but alot of time they say they will call and then get busy! (i know df does anyway)
as far as the myspace stuff... im sorry he didn't write you, but dont let the small stuff gert to you. i know we are women and we always think "omg he doesn't love me" but the internet could have gone down, he might have gotten busy ... really it could have been anything.

and how long is his deployment? is he getting an r&r, you said you were halfway but he has only been gone 3 months?

Hey Hun..I was you yesterday. I was so upset for the same reason, but for 8 days was signing in, checking it and not responding.
I actually printed this out so the next time I freak out I can remind myself.
This is what torie said to me yesterday:
It's hard. Trust us, we all know how tough it can be. What we don't know is how far the walk is to the MWR or where ever the computers are. We dont' know how long they have to wait in line to use the computers. We don't know that they only get 20-30 minutes IF there is internet connection available for them to use. We don't realize that they are always at the beck and call of their command. If someone above them needs something, then they only get 5 minutes to sign online.

Hang in there. It's tough and it will drive you nuts. Take comfort in seeing when he logs in to read his e-mails. I would always track my guy's sign in date on myspace. If he didn't sign in yet that day, I would go to his friend's myspace (they are in the same platoon). As long as one of them had signed in that day, I knew my guy was okay. Even if I didn't hear from him.
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I know DB has his own laptop but I dont know the connection. I finally got a response from him. He told me not to worry, and he was busy working and read my messages and went to bed. Keep writing him, keep it positive. He needs your love. I feel so bad cause I feel like I just added more stress on DB.

The r&R thing...db doesnt get it until march. When he goes back he will have 3 months. So think of it like this. You may have to stick it out for a while without him but atleast when you see him, know that bulk of it is over and you have less time to wait. I wish you luck hun....if you need a shoulder to cry on...im here.

Oh ya....and this is going to sound super dumb. But yesterday the one thing that REALLY helped me was listening to Jordin Sparks new song One Step At A Time. I think listening to it over and over, I was getting it.

Oh ya....and this is going to sound super dumb. But yesterday the one thing that REALLY helped me was listening to Jordin Sparks new song One Step At A Time. I think listening to it over and over, I was getting it.

I love that song!!!!

:hugs I know it could be frustrating at times. DH rarely replies to my emails and yeah I noticed he logs on myspace too. But, he lets me know that he got caught up doing other things or he had to get off the computer. And sometimes they're just too tired. I know its just a two second thing, but I don't know how great the connection is out there. I hope things let up for you. :bigsadhug

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im sorry you haven't heard from him, but alot of time they say they will call and then get busy! (i know df does anyway)
as far as the myspace stuff... im sorry he didn't write you, but dont let the small stuff gert to you. i know we are women and we always think "omg he doesn't love me" but the internet could have gone down, he might have gotten busy ... really it could have been anything.

and how long is his deployment? is he getting an r&r, you said you were halfway but he has only been gone 3 months?


We are 41%, not quite half way. He will be home sometime near Dec.
His unit was only going for 10months and he got a little less because he left late and everyone comes home together at once.

Oh, thank you so much everyone. I am trying not to be frustrated, but like I said, it's everything, not just this. It just sucks because he uses MY debit card to pay for his internet and he can't even send me a comment? Also, he has a lap top and gets the internet in his CHU.

IDK, I'm going to cut him a break. I feel bad because I don't want to stress him out, but it hurts because he read the email basically telling him that I was feeling blue and needed a little "pick me up". I guess I'm going to email him again. Man deployments suck. I'm going to listen to that song and see how it makes me feel.

Thank you everyone. I really am thankful. I'll keep you posted.

Deep breath, sweets. It's hard, but ya gotta chill a wee bit. I don't know about anyone else, but MySpace has been acting like a PIRA for me lately. It's taking for-frickin-ever to load, send messages, and send comments. I gave up on it for the past 2 nights after getting so frustrated. Sometimes these things happen. So deep breath, chill, and maybe hold off on that e-mail for a day. Give yourself some time to chillax. K?

:hugs Hang in there!

I'm sorry. Deployments suck. Especially when you have to deal with bad communicating men. My db is like that...he just plain stinks at responding to emails. Hopefully he picks up the slack for you! Hang in there :hugs

Oh my gosh. I think that in the last few days there have been about 5 of us who I continually see posting about how our db's are sucking at communicating!

I went through the same thing last week. My db has internet at work,and a lap top (he is in Iraq) and he didn't email me for 7 days. :vent It totally started to mess with my head and by Monday I couldn't even get out of bed and totally hit a wall. :wowsers

Well I finally got to talk to him yesterday and I could tell he was so down and was having such a hard time. I explained he needed to communicate that with me as best as he could and he was receptive and I could tell really needed the support. I felt so bad that I freaked out (in my mind) and it totally reminded me that he loved me and needed me to be strong. So I made him a great care package yesterday and am going to send it today!:D

It is so ok to feel that way and I am sure he is thinking about you just as much!:goodvibes:hugehug

Deep breath, sweets. It's hard, but ya gotta chill a wee bit. I don't know about anyone else, but MySpace has been acting like a PIRA for me lately. It's taking for-frickin-ever to load, send messages, and send comments. I gave up on it for the past 2 nights after getting so frustrated. Sometimes these things happen. So deep breath, chill, and maybe hold off on that e-mail for a day. Give yourself some time to chillax. K?

The email wasn't to bitch at him or anything. Just a sweet one saying that I love him and support him. Then I wrote him 3 poems and put them in there. I never get mad at him, just frustrated with the situation. He is such a great communicator most of the time, so I know something must have came up. I hope he calls soon though, I really do.

Thanks every one!!