I haven't really been active on here the last few days...sorry. Kind of been in a fog ever since DB left. I've talked to him everyday, but it seems so weird that he is so far away, and will go even father away in a few months. It's been a little hard to stay focused, and very difficult to sleep.

I'm starting to feel a little better and this is starting to feel more real.

ahhh sleepless nights...Kinda like tonight. the past 3 nights ive gotten 2 hours of sleep each night, and yet I still cant fall asleep at night.

That is totally ok to feel that way. This is very difficult. Keep your head up though, it does get easier! :hugs

Hang in there. it's perfectly normal to feel the distance in ways you never imagined. And not sleeping is normal as well. I went through a period where I couldn't fall asleep. When I finally succeeded, I was woken by wacked out dreams. It was no good. But it did end eventually. Just keep putting one foot in front of another.

:hugs