... I've felt since DF has been gone. He's been deployed for 7 months now, due to come home sometime in June for R&R. I've held it together pretty good.. kept myself busy and my mind from wandering. Tonight was the pretty much the hardest night yet. My girlfriends and I went out to the bar for a few drinks. We were having a really good time.. and then about 1/2 way through the night, all of their boyfriends/husbands came in to suprise them. I was the only one sitting there without someone. I felt totally left out and I made up some excuse that I had to leave.. got in my car, and bawled my eyes out.. for like 10 minutes straight. I'm an extremely strong person, but tonight cracked me. I know my friends didn't mean to hurt me.. and it wasn't their idea for their guys to come in... but it just felt really shitty:sadeyes

Im sorry :hugs :hugs

aw hang in there! I know exactly how you're feeling...pretty much anytime I see a happy couple I get that little pang of jealousy. Not that I don't want them to be happy, but I would love if that were me you know? June is almost here, you are so close!!:)

:hugs

i know how you are feeling honey. I can't even look at my friends when they are around their SOs cause I feel like crying right there in the middle of everyone. One of my friends went home with a guy once and I was jealous. I was jealous cause she went home with a total stranger. Funny I know. I guess I was jealous cause she was going to be with someone that liked her and I got to go home and sleep in my bed alone. I must have sat in my car for 45 minutes crying and it was 2 am in the morning already.

I know its hard honey but you will get through it. Just think about him coming home for R&R and how happy life is going to be. We all have hard days. We are expected to be strong when our men are away, but whoever said that we have to be strong all the time. Sometimes you need to have a little cry to go on with your life. Chin up girl he will be home soon and then you can hug him and kiss him and do other things with him all you want.

:hugs i am so sorry:hugs

im sorry that is so sucky that it happened on your girls nite! and it wasnt even intentional! hang in there r&r is almost here for you guys!! :hugs :hugs

I probably would have left and cried too. Just the way you did.