My husband has been gone for a year and one month in Afghanistan. He is suppose to get back sometime in June. We got married during his leave last September and so this is our first deployment together. Even though he has been gone for so long and we are at the end stretch to home-coming, my emotions are all over the place. I am just wondering if you think this a normal thing...or if something is wrong with me. I am tired a lot and cranky with my 3 year old daughter most of the time. It's hard to get motivated. It makes me want to vomit when I see other couples together. When I hear of other girls getting pregnant, I hate them. I am overwelmed all the time. I have problems with my sleeping, including nightmares every night. I cry everyday. So.......do I need to be commited or what? It's pretty embarassing feeling like this. :sadeyes

I'm starting to get scared about DH coming home in a few more months..

I don't know if it's "normal", but I feel the same way you do.. Ihave nightmares everynight too, I don't sleep well at all. I've never slept good since he left... But I don't cry everyday, I don't have time for it..

What do you do to keep yourself busy?

I think you should go to the doctor and tell them what you are feeling. Sounds like depression to me. But stay strong sweetie!

I haven't been there yet, so I don't know. I'd imagine a whole range of feelings is perfectly normal. :hugs

And I feel you with the wanting to vomit/punch happy couples sometimes.

Feeling overwhelmed is normal but the things you're describing sounds like depression. Go speak to your MD regarding your feelings.

It's possible it's a form of depression, but don't let that bother you more. Since depression IS a "normal" reaction to a deployment, then yeah, it's normal ;)

Ok...I'm not feeling like such a freak now. Thanks girls! I do keep myself busy...too busy. I was a single mom before I met my husband...and bought this house. I spend a lot of time just trying to keep that up, along with working full time, school work, and fitting my daughter in between. I don't have any family in this area, which doesn't help because I need a break. Sometimes it would be nice to just be able to take a shower quietly or eat a meal without getting up and down 5 times. I haven't talked to my doctor because I don't want anitdepressants. I've been on them before during extreme times...and that was more than enough. I don't want to be masking my feelings like those pills seemed to do to me. It probably doesn't help that my hormones are screwed up. Something is wrong with my ovaries and they will be poking and prodding me next month to see what it is. Sorry...now this is turning into venting...

Ok...I'm not feeling like such a freak now. Thanks girls! I do keep myself busy...too busy. I was a single mom before I met my husband...and bought this house. I spend a lot of time just trying to keep that up, along with working full time, school work, and fitting my daughter in between. I don't have any family in this area, which doesn't help because I need a break. Sometimes it would be nice to just be able to take a shower quietly or eat a meal without getting up and down 5 times. I haven't talked to my doctor because I don't want anitdepressants. I've been on them before during extreme times...and that was more than enough. I don't want to be masking my feelings like those pills seemed to do to me. It probably doesn't help that my hormones are screwed up. Something is wrong with my ovaries and they will be poking and prodding me next month to see what it is. Sorry...now this is turning into venting...

Vent away! We're here as a sounding board for you :)

I hope you feel better. you sound like you have every reason to be completely overwhelmed. But in a matter of a few months your husband will be home and it wont be so tough for a while. But take it easy when you can and if those feelings get too much you should talk to the doctor and see what she thinks. Good luck!

Its ok. I've had times when I've just wanted to cry for days on end. Once I had a nightmare that df vanished. I hate seeing people being all coupley when my guy is away. You'll be ok.