I don't know if I can do this!!!!:tears I am only 3 months into DB's deployment, so I know i have NO right to complain because many of you have been through way more:hugs
I just can't seem to stop thinking about him and hoping he's safe, and waiting all day everyday to hear from him. I finally got a txt message today and as soon as I read it I just found myself bawling, like every single emotion just flooded out of me:tears . From a stupid little text message!! And it is like this day after day it seems like lately.
Maybe I'm just having a bad week, but to think of a year of this still to go...:ohno

sorry lol mayb this should have been in venting. I feel like such a baby, and I cry at EVERYTHING now too lol

*note to self "get it together!":screwy And to all you that have had SO's gone for longer I wish I could have half your strength:lovestruck

You can do it sweety! We are all here for you

:hugs Never feel like you don't have a right to complain! You definitely do! It's really hard. (L)

:hugs Never feel like you don't have a right to complain! You definitely do! It's really hard. (L)

I agree with that!

I had a really hard time with this deployment and still do at times but I am getting better. I auctually had to put myself on St.Johns Wort because I was so depressed and having a difficult time dealing. For me the change came on Palm Sunday Church service. I still have my moments when I am terrified but for the most part I am "ok", never good, never great, but ok. Thats better then running around like this :freakout :tired

So my best advice to you is to find a hobby, stay busy and if your spirtual to connect with whatever religion you are. Its the best way to get through it. Concentrate on the days you've put past you and how much closer that makes you two then the days you still have ahead of you. One day you'll be sitting here going, Hes comming home and it feels like he just left! :hugs

Sometimes I think I am being a baby because I know some women have been a lot worse off or been away for longer or whatever. Then I remember this is MY life not theirs, I will get my time to deal with deployments and such. I have to deal with it in my own way not theirs. I am sure just because they got through a year deployment doesn't mean they didn't struggle either. No one here could do it without support from others, may it be friends, family, or forums. So keep your head, try to be strong, but when you can't just know that its ok and there are people to help you along the way.

:hugs You have lots of support here. :hugs

i know exactly what youre going through..i wait for emails everyday, hoping for a call and sometimes crying, and he has only been gone for a few weeks...
but i know this site will give you lots of support! hang in there, and keep busy, it has worked for me so far:hugs