of course as my nightly ritual is.. i am here in the bored room... feel free to be bored with me...

yay for being bored.

hehe yeah i have been up since nine and was tired earlier, but once all the sibs started leaving i started waking up... it gets too quiet and i start thinking too much, lol..

lol...I am that way too, I think too much. DB emailed me and asked if I had cell service up here in AK. I then started thinking that he was going to call me and say that he was coming home early. I know thats not the case.

I never sleep. lol. Im always up this late

i got to talk to DH today for over 40 mins! I was so excited! we had a good time just talking and enjoying the sound of each others voice. but when it came time to get off the phone, I started choking up and didnt want to hang up... and he told me not to sound so sad, and i was trying, and it didnt help that he sounded so sad, but then again if he hadnt then i would be freaking out over why he didnt...but it was the first time i had heard his voice in a week and when i heard i started tearing up but fought it back till we hungup... and with the exception of about 3 hours, i've been here pretty much alone all day and I miss him so much right now...btw i ramble when I am trying to keep my mind busy, lol...

It's 11 15pm here but I cant sleep even though I have to get up at 430 am

Ramble all you want. I am a good listener. I do the same myself.

Im watching the news which I hate to do but cant find anything else on to watch right now so yeah

So any plans for tommorow

Ha ha Paula got a broken nose while trying not to step on her dog

plans for tomorrow? Write a paper. Now thats what I call fun, not really.

the same as i always do... avoid watching the news ( read it so i can decide what I am exposed to lol), avoid stupid ppl that want to ask questions and dont understand what the hell i am going through right now, keep my mind busy since i cant do much right now, and wait and pray and hope to hear his voice that day... that is my day summed up ,lol... that is why i am here so much.. keeps me busy, lol..

AWWW. so there is a massage thingy on the computer chair. Its so nice.

I am going to be taking my Hubby to work then my best friend to the doctors and I dont know what else

I want cotton candy

i need a massage... i need alot of things, mostly my hubby back... sorry yall i'm just really down tonight...

well im here if you wanna talk and when im not here im on aim or yahoo messanger

i'm almost always on yahoo , lol... i'm just really having a hard time with it.. and people tend not to think before they ask questions, and then freak out when their questions make me angry or cry...

well if you want to add me my yahoo is cangelicious21

mrick I am so sorry I forget your name. I am bad with names.

I have also had a bad day. Its kinda hard being in db parents house with out him here. Once I went to bed all I could think about was him kissing me good night and holding me. I then brokedown, I must have cried myself to sleep.

so ladies whats going on in here

Its Michele, and dont worry i forgot yours too! lol.. I know what you mean.. I'm at DH's parents till he gets back, and its just not right... but they are so wonderful... everyone is "running across" pictures of him and sneaking into my room and putting them on my mirror, or they stick notes up for me...they are wonderful...and I've heard it a few times since i been here " I'm so thankful my son/ brother found you! You are exactly what he needs and deserves." or something along those lines... but its just not right without him here... and i know that it wont be right anywhere until he gets back... so I wait, and pray, and hope, and wait for the next chance to hear his voice

I'm being depressed and having a day...about the norm since he left..

Just stay strong hun and pray for his safety

Well ladies i have to wake up in 4 hours so I think im goin gto try and get some sleep

Its Michele, and dont worry i forgot yours too! lol.. I know what you mean.. I'm at DH's parents till he gets back, and its just not right... but they are so wonderful... everyone is "running across" pictures of him and sneaking into my room and putting them on my mirror, or they stick notes up for me...they are wonderful...and I've heard it a few times since i been here " I'm so thankful my son/ brother found you! You are exactly what he needs and deserves." or something along those lines... but its just not right without him here... and i know that it wont be right anywhere until he gets back... so I wait, and pray, and hope, and wait for the next chance to hear his voice

my name is willow. my db mom is the same. She paid for my plane ticket up here to AK, she took me shopping for food and told me to pick out whatever I wanted. I have only been here 2 days and she has done so much, but it just feels kinda wrong without db here. We can't be bad and make love while everyone is out of the house (we did that when we were in Cali for thanksgiving. hehe), all I can do is like I did at home, I pray he is safe, I pray that he will call me and I wait until I am in his arms again.

but today I went and saw shrek 3 and I laughed so I guess it wasn't an all sad day.

you sound like i do exactly!!! that is weird, lol.. but comforting, lol..I didnt see a movie today... but i thought about killing someone, lol... read my rant and you'll understand, lol.. i feel better after writing it too..

i just read it. I just don't understand people that do that. She sounds like a piece of work. If you don't kick the crap out of her I will.

Yeah we do sound alike. I would share with you the email I wrote James when he left but I think you might cry and I wouldn't want that. I mean its been 4 months and I still get a bit of the tears when I read the thing.

So want to hear something funny? I am sitting here with one side of my hair braided and the other not.

HAHA!! I wish i could braid my hair... I chopped it all off... it mean pixied it... about oh say a few days after we got married.... I didnt mean for it to get cut this short... the woman jsut got scissor happy... but i'm growing it out while DH is gone... so by time he gets back it should be to the middle of my back... right now its really shaggy... really really shaggy...like below my ears on the lngest layer...lol... thank god my hair grows fast, lol

I know how you feel. my plan is to have long hair by the time db gets back. Right now its just past my shoulders and I want it to be longer. Right before he left I asked him if he minded if I cute my hair and he got the sadest look on his face. I guess that means he like my long hair.

When i cut my hair off it was the middle of my thighs.. and i chopped it off and gave it to cancer patients....that was january of last year...i just kept getting it trimmed bc i wanted to look good for DH, lol.. now i'm, shagging it out bc he wont be here to see the awkward stages, lol.. by time he gets his first r &r it will be about even with my chin ( all over even) and so on... thank god myhair grows fast... and i found a shampoo and conditioner that helps it grow too, lol

Damn it! I was feeling happy now I am sad again! Make the madness stop!!

Yeah we do sound alike. I would share with you the email I wrote James when he left but I think you might cry and I wouldn't want that. I mean its been 4 months and I still get a bit of the tears when I read the thing.

I have an email like that fro dh... and i realized when i read it that he is having the thoughts and fears as i am. and of course ever time i read it i cry

When I sent it to James he said that its nice to know how I feel and that he misses me too. I started crying then and there.

Make the sadness stop

If i could i wouldnt be crying right now hun... and i know i'm ging to be like this until he gets back

me too. I was doing great but being here with his family makes me sad. Plus I just want a hug and kiss.

Enough of the sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

James sent me this and it makes me laugh

1. A day without sunshine is like night.

2. On the other hand, you have different fingers.

3. 42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.

4. 99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.

5. Remember, half the people you know are below average.

6. He who laughs last, thinks slowest.

7. Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

8. The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese in the trap.

9. Support bacteria. They're the only culture some people have.

10. A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

11. Change is inevitable, except from vending machines.

12. If you think nobody cares, try missing a couple of payments.

13. How many of you believe in psycho-kinesis? Raise my hand.

14. OK, so what's the speed of dark?

15. When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane .

16. Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

17. How much deeper would the ocean be without sponges?

18. Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines

19. What happens if you get scared half to death, twice?

20. Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?

21. Inside every older person is a younger person wondering, What the heck happened?"

22. Just remember -- if the world didn't suck, we would all fall off.

23. Light travels faster than sound. That's why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.


24. Life isn't like a box of chocolates -it's more like a jar of
jalapenos. What you do today, might burn your ass tomorrow.

:bigsadhug I would be happy just o lay my head on his chest and just have him hold me... no talking...no kissing. there would be no need for that... just holding...

Hello Ladies! I'm here for a bit! My new computer has arrived!

Are you guys doing good today?

Hello Ladies! I'm here for a bit! My new computer has arrived!

What kind of computer?

Its not a good nite Jen. All I want to do is cry.

:bigsadhug I would be happy just o lay my head on his chest and just have him hold me... no talking...no kissing. there would be no need for that... just holding...

i would love to just rub my hand on his chest and drive him crazy doing it. :lol I am evil sometimes but he loves it.

moping, lol

i meant mope-ing like being sad,lol

You spelled it right, lol, moping. Mopping, is what I'm guessing you thought of, ;)

What kind of computer?

A custom built desktop form cyberpowerpc

A custom built desktop form cyberpowerpc

Wow, awesome! You're going to have fun setting that up then. :)

hehe thanks

Michele, you do know where I know you from, right? I meant to ask, lol

:hugs It's okay ladies, crying is allowed!

Wow, awesome! You're going to have fun setting that up then. :)

It's already set up, now I have to install everything and update my ipod, etc.

I don't think I'd be alive today if crying wasn't allowed.

i would already be dead if i couldnt cry.. and no i dont know where you are from kiwi,,,do tell

i feel I could cry for the rest of this deployment.

I know i will

Crying is healthy, as long as you aren't constantly crying. WHen Dh was in the litterbox, I cried at least once a week, a MAJOR cry, I'd get into the shower and just let myself sob until a timer went off and then I'd make myself stop and get out and go do something so I didn't get too depressed. It really helped me, and I think a good cry is still necessary at times.

Proud Military Wives

OH YEAH!! i knew that.. for a sec i thought i knew you in RL by the way you said it though, lol

LOL It's ok.

I should be sleeping right now, lol.

you just had me cnfused for a moment, lol... I was thinking, " is she stationed at HAAF?? and i was going throught the list of wives i knew

What time is it where you ladies are?

its 12:25 am in Alaska

so should I but i cant yet... the meds havent kicked inyet, lol

3:25 am in ND

its 1:26 am here in north california... and no its not all beaches! ( my family keeps asking me that) I'm in the farm lands!! there are sheep outside my bedroom window! i grew up on a farm, but we raised cattle and horses... not sheep

Lol sheep...that's awesome. There are neighbors outside my window. I think I'd take the sheep ;)

It's 10:35 am here in Italy. Where in NC are you? my stepkiddo's live in NC!

I was in 4-H growing up and I lived on a ranch. We had horses, cows, some sheep, pigs and goats.

I did the 4 h cattle and horses... but I'm from alabama,and we dont raise sheep there ,lol

I'm cooking some chicken breasts up right now, I'm going to have chicken and rice for lunch!

i thank my mom for the sheep, pigs, and goats. All I wanted to do was ride horses and thats what I did. I did gaming and performance. I want to start giving lessons to people when I get home.

i' forbidden from getting on a horse until the doc's okay it bc of my back... that was the first thing DH made me promise when we decide i was coming out here while he was gone, lol..

hmm...what cleaning should I do next......

aww thats so sad. The last time I was on a horse was this winter when my dad was at a roping thing. I hate riding in his roping saddle cause it has no padding but I wanted to ride

They dog is asleep on my feet and snoring like DH, lol... its oddly comforting, lol...may be he snores

I haven't been on a horse since my trainer sold mine behind my back, actually.

hehe... db doesn't snore but he says I do. I DON'T SNORE!!!

Mrick does your dh talk in his sleep too or just snore?

bye ladies.

Night!

he snores... but if i try to wake him up and he;s dead asleep, he'll sit up open his eyes and talk to me, but not wake up... lol

haha thats funny....

DH will carry on complete conversations and never have a clue.

yep.. mine does that too..

DH will carry on complete conversations and never have a clue.

i had a friend like that in high school. We used to have full convos with him and he wouldn't know it. Once we filmed it. Now that was funny

He told me one night they were repainting the entire parking lot so he had to leave early because he had to walk like a block because the officers got their own parking lot. He went on and on, and something about aliens and phantom properties (lol) and I figured he had fallen back asleep. The next day I was like HURRY UP if you have to be there early. He just looked at me like I was the one on crack, LOL

lol.. DH was talking about decorating the walls in the apartment... with egg shells... for like 30 mins...

LOL I love it. And I'm such a turd, I sit there and talk back to him. Makes me feel good though, because I KNOW he's asleep, but with a little plying I can get him to say, "I love you Alexis" and I know he's not dreaming about someone else ;)

haha thats cute....

James doesn't do anything interesting like talk in his sleep. However sometimes he does wake up and just looks at me.

i'm so glad that i'm not the only one that gets a laugh out of doing that to my husband:D

thanks for the convo, but the meds just kicked in and my chair is absorbing me, so i need to go to bed now, lol..

i'm so glad that i'm not the only one that gets a laugh out of doing that to my husband:D

Heck no you're not, lol. I still maintain that my favorite thing to do is if he's talking about painting, I'll go, "But won't the baby mess it up?" So he'll go off on a tangent about how we need to cage the baby :lmao and then I'll go, "But don't the ghosts come then?" or something random. We went from the color green to him sitting STRAIGHT up in bed going "And the rocket's red glare...the hhmmmhmhm"

Have a good night Michele. Night Willow, I'm off too.

Heck no you're not, lol. I still maintain that my favorite thing to do is if he's talking about painting, I'll go, "But won't the baby mess it up?" So he'll go off on a tangent about how we need to cage the baby :lmao and then I'll go, "But don't the ghosts come then?" or something random. We went from the color green to him sitting STRAIGHT up in bed going "And the rocket's red glare...the hhmmmhmhm"

HAHAHAHAHAHA that is the funniest thing

night all talk to you tomorrow!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA that is the funniest thing

What made it so damn funny was this boy can't carry a tune in a bucket with a lid on it...so he was all off key, trying to salute himself singing the Anthem

Night


What made it so damn funny was this boy can't carry a tune in a bucket with a lid on it...so he was all off key, trying to salute himself singing the Anthem
HAHA. I think milk just came out my nose

aww the only thing I do to James is rub his chest when he is trying to sleep

I tickle Aron. :)

I also sing him to sleep every night :wub He's gotten to where he has a rough time sleeping without it

I try to tickle James but he always pins me down, he is much stronger then I am. the only way I get to tickle him is when we are out. Then of course I get, "you are so getting it later." hehe