So my boyfriend (kinda sorta) is coming home in the next few weeks after being deployed for almost two years. The kinda sorta comes from the fact that he has been deployed for almost two years. And that we are 20 years old. On the other side of things I have known him since we were 4 years old and dated him in high school.

So to my point...
Am I crazy????
I am not ready for him to come home.
I am been doing this for too long, I just got things figured out.
I am scared
And on top of things, no one around here seems to understand or want to pretend to understand. It doesnt help my best friend and military support system just moved 800 miles away.

So am I crazy? I really dont want to just shut down and give up on our relationship and supporting him; but I am pretty sure this is not how I am suppose to be feeling.

Miranda

No your not crazy, I was the same way too, I was so nervous to see dh when he was gone last year on deployment, I didnt know what to expect when I saw him. Dont worry when you guys do see each other, things will be alot better :)

no ur not crazy, its very natural, if you love him just stick with him and everything will straighten itself out.

Its a scary thing! When my husband came home from training I was so confused, I had just gotten used to things being the way they were.
The Important thing is that you two love eachother, you'll get used to having him back after a while.