ok girls, i told everyone already that me and my x fiance are trying to work things out and its going good as it ever has. we talk more, we see each other more and stuff like that. I dont even know what to do anymore cause he is leaving on the 13 or the 21st. i dont want him to go. today it really hit me that it will be another year before he comes home again. I am tired of him being stationed in Germany. I want him home!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am really tired of this. Damnit, why wont they let him come home. Its unfair. He thinks i deserve better than a part time DB and i dont want anyone but him. I have tried to be with someone else but its never the same, they are never him. The days are closing in before he leaves me again. I just spent over a year without him and i dont want to do it again but i have to. I know we will be fine but i dont want to have to go through it again.

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don't worry girl. we're all here for you. you know i got your back girl. i'm glad you guys have decided to work things out. hopefully things will work out for you this time. sounds like we will be scraping up our pennies and visiting germany with jas ! :lol hang in there girl :hugehug

you a mess treva. i want to go, if he doesn't come on in december, lets take a trip, lol. i know everything will be fine. but its just depressing, i know it will all be better when i see him tonite, lol. he is getting week though, i am not use to that. he is usually the one keeping me strong and now its the other way around.