So I have known my airman was leaving for 6 months. The last month he was with me I have been not myself and very emotional/mean. We couldn't have sex without me crying. He left 3 days ago. I was beside myself when he left. I stayed on base for 6 hours waiting to make sure his plane got off the ground safely. Then i went back to his/our apartment and just started cleaning...until i checked the voice memo he left on my cell...We are really corny and we have pet names that we come up with different forms of...He is Duck and I am bear. he is duck because his dad used to call him joeduck when he was little. I am bear because he says I hibernate and only wake up to eat and mate...sad but true haha. His voice memo was him telling me a fairytale story of us. I listen to it like 10 times a day. I haven't been able to sleep much at all since he left. He has called me everyday and I can't help crying as soon as he asks me how I am..."how is my little green-eyed bear doing?" god I can't take it....I am so lonely. I have been going to work and doing my school work...but it isn't the same. I dont want to do ANYTHING. I want to shut down and literally hibernate until he is home with me....I am so very lonely. I have gotten mean to everyone else because I don't want to be bothered. I am in a wedding next week and I am DREADING going...alone... I know he will be okay, and I feel really selfish...I just don't want to be without him....I love him SO much. He is my balance...my other half...my therapist...my world. I have already written him 3 letters, drew him 2 pictures, sent a care package and a calling card, and I have written him like 10 emails already....I don't want to overkill anything....but I feel like i need to be contacting him somehow at all times....I friggin hate this!

First... you're not alone in how you feel. We've all been there at one time or another. It is the worst feeling in the world to have half of yourself leave you.

Second... find things to keep yourself busy or you'll go nuts. Get some boxes from the USPS and start a care package for db, adding things to it as you think about it. Write letters... hold onto them until he gives you an address to send them to and then mail away! I usually try to get greeting cards (or you can make them!) and send atleast one a week.

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Forth... When in doubt. ASK!

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Awww don't worry about being mean. I just saw my husband for the last time before he deploys yesterday. We had ten days together, and i swear we fought more in those ten days than in our entire relationship. We talked about it, and we both think it's just the stress of the deployment coming up. We just don't know what to do with that anger so it manifests into stupid arguments. It'll be okay!

ive neever gone through a deployment but the good things alot of people on here have and know what youre going through become addicted like the rest of us iut helps pass the time trust me also if u ever need to just chat pm me
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Once you start you can't stop. Don't be afraid to jump right in and start posting!

you're doing fine, sweetie. you are feeling completely normal. find things to keep yourself busy, as much as you may not want to at first. it will pass the time much faster. and like someone said, become an addict on here!!! PM if you EVER need to talk.

I am bear because he says I hibernate and only wake up to eat and mate...sad but true haha.

:lmao That is soooooooooo cute!!! My boyfriend always got on my case for hibernating too, but he never made the bear connection. :lol

Keep sending him emails and packages. He needs them!!! Mail is all they have to look forward to if you think about it.

It's good that you are still staying on track with work and school. Keep it up! It will only help you to stick with a schedule and stay active. Do you exercise? Try to fit a little in, even if it's just walking around the block or something small.

Go to the wedding. Especially since you are in it! Don't crap out :tsktsk I didn't go to a wedding a couple weeks ago because I was hibernating :oops But... I didn't like the bitch anyway :lol

:hang :hugs

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:hystericlaugh Why was this ranked third????!?!?! Where is your loyalty!?!! :jk Did you read the "You know you're addicted to SOS when..." thread yet?

Sweetie if he's only been gone for three days then that is completely understandable. I wouldn't come out of my room the first day DB was gone. I couldn't eat anything for a whole day. And I was a wreck that first week. But after a few weeks went by you learn to pick yourself up and just continue on with your life. I know it's hard, some days are harder than others but it does get easier to cope with. It's never easy but it gets less difficult. :hang

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Your not alone don't worry, I got really moody before my SO left and I have done every time the week before he goes i get really moody with him and cry i am a mixture of emotions, so you are not alone by far :) Like I am sure everyone will tell you keep busy, try and hang out with friends, even if you don't feel like it, it will probably make you feel better. Push yourself to do things and the time will go faster and you will in a few days feel better, but you are going to get down at times down the road during this deployment, we all do.........hugzzzzzzzz you will cope, just imagine what would happen if you couldn't cope......you probably wouldn't be in the relationship, thats how i think or am trying to think, and i dont want to be without him, he's my rock, my best friend also, so I cope, I cry, I keep busy, I get depressed, but at the end of all this I get him back :) and thats what keeps me going.

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Oh and to add to this post, somebody else said excerise, thats a great idea, I actualy started last week and its making me feel better and also getting me in shape :)

It's never easy but it gets less difficult.

Very well said! I have been trying to find the words to explain that exactly.

Nothing's wrong with you! Everyone reacts in different ways, and that's about how I behave in the 2nd week after my DH leaves. It's one of the most stressful situations most couples will ever go through, so don't think badly of yourself for feeling the way you do. And your DB obviously understands how you felt before he left, if he's contacting you every day, so don't worry about what he's thinking of you either. Try to keep to your normal routine, it helps alot. And this site is awesome, I love having someplace to go just to vent if I feel like it.
PM me if you ever want to talk, and although it sounds trite, hang in there, it does get better with time. :hugehug

Hey,

I know exactly how you feel. It does suck, but I guess we just have to take this one day at a time and we will get there. It might seem like forever but we will and we will be the better for it. Luck

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oh so true it helps so much!