paisley1370
09-17-2007, 08:59 PM
Hey,
Im Heather. Just wanted to say Hi to everyone. My boyfriend Jason is a Marine and just deployed to Kuwait, well, he is still at Camp Lejuene finishing training right now. He will be leaving to go overseas on Monday Sept 24th.
This is his first tour, and my first relationship with someone in the military.
I feel so lucky to be with him, he stayed here with me when he took his leave a few weeks ago,so we could do everything we have talked about maybe doing. I am so lost right now. I dont know how to direct my feelings. Even though I am not loosing him, I still feel like it.
Since he is at training we still talk almost everynight. I feel selfish sometimes because over the couple weeks of him being in training camp he is doing better, and i am still totally bummed. He had last weekend off, and drove to Baltimore to go hanging out/drinking with his buddies,I mean im glad he's having a good time before he leaves but then on the otherhand im fussy at him, how can he feel better already? Its silly, but im almost jealous of the people he is at training camp with,that he talks about, because they get to hang out with him. So, anyway its going to suck when im not even getting the phone calls anymore. I dont really know what to expect. Im so nervous about everything. I have total confidence in our relationship but im so vulnerable right now i have just been thinking about everything that pops in my head.He is deployed for 6'mos in Kuwait,what if he doesnt feel the same about me when he comes back? I dont even know what to write or ask because i honestly am just a huge ramblin mess right now.I have done all the crying and am doing better, i just dont know what to do with my feelings or what they all mean. 6 mo's seems like forever and a day, how am i going to get through this?
Im glad to read all the info on here. Makes me feel a lil bit better :)
Im Heather. Just wanted to say Hi to everyone. My boyfriend Jason is a Marine and just deployed to Kuwait, well, he is still at Camp Lejuene finishing training right now. He will be leaving to go overseas on Monday Sept 24th.
This is his first tour, and my first relationship with someone in the military.
I feel so lucky to be with him, he stayed here with me when he took his leave a few weeks ago,so we could do everything we have talked about maybe doing. I am so lost right now. I dont know how to direct my feelings. Even though I am not loosing him, I still feel like it.
Since he is at training we still talk almost everynight. I feel selfish sometimes because over the couple weeks of him being in training camp he is doing better, and i am still totally bummed. He had last weekend off, and drove to Baltimore to go hanging out/drinking with his buddies,I mean im glad he's having a good time before he leaves but then on the otherhand im fussy at him, how can he feel better already? Its silly, but im almost jealous of the people he is at training camp with,that he talks about, because they get to hang out with him. So, anyway its going to suck when im not even getting the phone calls anymore. I dont really know what to expect. Im so nervous about everything. I have total confidence in our relationship but im so vulnerable right now i have just been thinking about everything that pops in my head.He is deployed for 6'mos in Kuwait,what if he doesnt feel the same about me when he comes back? I dont even know what to write or ask because i honestly am just a huge ramblin mess right now.I have done all the crying and am doing better, i just dont know what to do with my feelings or what they all mean. 6 mo's seems like forever and a day, how am i going to get through this?
Im glad to read all the info on here. Makes me feel a lil bit better :)