He responded to my msg today finally. He really has me confused. I don't understand why men r so difficult to understand. I want to show you what he wrote me and maybe you can help me decipher what it all means. :sigh

huh? what? what did he say?-- yes, I agree with you, they are very weird sometimes

This is just part of what was written between the 2 of us.
Venisa,

I'm not saying goodbye. That was my way of removing myself from drama. That's what I do. That's why I have peace of mind. I enjoy life. I don't worry about it. I enjoy it.

Would you like to talk, now?



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: **Princess**
Date: Sep 21, 2007 12:01 AM


did i miss somethin in the email? u can't answer a question w/ a question cuz that doesn't answer anything. Ur done and I get it. *sigh* The box is lookin pretty nice right now and I think it's time for me to jump back in...

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From:
Date: Sep 20, 2007 6:51 AM


Well if that email says it all...?

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: **Princess**
Date: Sep 20, 2007 11:45 PM


Doubts play a role in my life everyday. I doubt myself frequently. I don't want to be the one to say "I knew it" but can you prove me wrong? I'm here with an email saying "I'm done V." What else does that say? To me that says it all.

You said months ago that " You must've realized you wanted to be happy"...and I agreed and now look. I know I'm not happy just hurting again.....
-------------------Original Message------------------
From: The Bow-legged One
Date: Sep 20, 2007 1:07 AM


The last email clearly stated that there are "direct" and "indirect" sources.

"If you truly love him, you wouldn't have any doubts..."

May want to think about the impact that type of statement leaves. (I'm sure they meant well, but that statement just starts doubt about whether or not you "truly" love me.)

It seems as if the only thing you want is your doubts to be justified-like you want me to say it's all a dream. If I just tell you none of it was real, then you can finally sit back and say, "aha, I knew it!" And that would give you the reason to go back to your shell. You're not comfortable outside, and you want to go back in. You want to so bad. It's like standing in the rain waiting for your ride to pick you up. You're scared it won't show up, and everyone else you told will be inside. And now you're not sure if you should stay or just go back. They all love you inside. You all will get over it, but at the same time, this could be the ride of your life. What do you do...what do you do? Only thing about it now is that no car lights are on the horizon. You're not sure if the road is blocked.
The cars/traffic has stopped...for now.


Ask the therapist. I could be wrong. You tell me.







Your crying breaks my heart, especially when I know I've played a part. -R

Hmmmm we'll talk about this on IM. This dude is so fickle!